Saturday, March 30, 2002 Hey, look! The "butt layout" is back up!!! There were just too many bad things going on with that Hello Kitty layout. Every time I looked at it I kept thinking of all that happened the other week. This layout, for some reason, makes me think of summer, so I'm keeping it up for a while. Enjoy! 2:31 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Thursday, March 28, 2002 Dang, is it a good hair day for me or what?! Becka better be able to go to the mall!! Lol. I'm eating a hoagie right now. Why do they have to put onions in the lettuce?? That's so gross. I keep biting into them. I don't mind onion flavored stuff, but actually biting into a peice of onion does not taste good. It's too bitter and strong or something. =P Mmm, my hair smells good...and it's so soft. Darn you stupid boys! Look what your'e missing! ='( 5:11 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Hey, I just now realized that I've had this blog for six months! Woo hoo! I'll be sure to have a special year anniversary layout when September rolls around. Ugh, don't even want to think about that. *crosses fingers* Let spring come, then summer, then spring all over again! Got a new cam picture up. Finally you're not still looking at my hand, lol. I actually think I look kinda nice in it. Maybe it's the way I did my hair. Today (I think after watching "Driven" on VH1 about Jennifer Lopez) I kinda wanted to mess around with my hair. Boy, that Jennifer Lopez looks good in ALL of her pictures. Not a bad picture in the bunch! And, man alive, Rashad (Aaliyah's brother) is sooo cute! Just thought I'd share! Lol. What ever happened to the "Batter Up" video by Nelly? I loved that song! BET played it all the time at the end of the summer. I never see it anymore. They need to get that back out, I liked it. Ok, Becka's been away from her computer for...1 hour and 13 minutes. Geez girl. She's probably eating or asleep. I IMed her like 20 times with "Becka". =P 12:24 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Wednesday, March 27, 2002 Here is a picture of me when I was 6 years old. ...Just for fun, you know. Ok, I updated this page....TA DA! I have a sister site! So, you all go check out Ellie's site and sign her guestbook! I'm missing pictures from my photo album. I thought they were the ones I gave my dad to take to India with him, but since I got those back, I discovered that I still have some missing. Hmm...I think I took them out to scan them and never put them back in...but where are they?? 1:38 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Here is Becka's graphic and here is Eric's. I'll be working on Katie's and everyone else's probably sometime today. I got to see Katie's ring, woo hoo. (sarcasm) And of course her getting married was brought up three or four times. =P I really don't want to hear about it. 12:22 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, March 26, 2002 We had a grave-side service today, then went to Steve's church (New Life AOG) to have lunch. Johnny was there and we told him that Katie's engaged. I think he flipped about as much as I did. Amber (Michael's girlfriend) said that she saw Katie's ring today. In about an hour we're going to Pizza Hut to eat for a fundraiser for the seniors. I don't think I'll be able to handle Katie and Becka being there...I just can't muster up an excitement over this egagement. I'm sorry, I just don't think it'll work. I know those two very, very well. It's not going to work. They're not going to get married. It's just not going to happen. I'm going to keep telling myself that to totally deny all jealousy. Oops, did I say jealousy? Dang it. So far today, no sign of a headache. It's mad raining outside, though. My mom thinks that's why all the sinus headaches were happening. She got one, too, but only once. If I even get another one tonight, I'm going to scream. I'm kinda dizzy right now, but not that bad. I'm so confused right now, I don't even know what to think, let alone type. I'll get back to you. 5:14 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Monday, March 25, 2002 Ok, I feel like there is this person pushing down on my head right now. Pressure...oh so much pressure on my brain. Katie is engaged...to Timmy...who's in the army. Um... 8:37 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Oh my. Last night my sinus headache got soooo much worse! I was getting dizzy and stuff. So around 11 I just went to bed. Just turning my head made the room spin. Ugh, that was awful. But I woke up today, headache gone. Now my parents are cooking fish or something...the stove smell might be making my headache come back. The Price is Right is on behind me, lol. I need some sister sites! I want people to make little gifts for...and I want to get little gifts. =P I'm making graphics for my friends that I'll have linked from my friends page. I already have Eric's done and I'm working on Becka's right now. *sigh* 11:18 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sunday, March 24, 2002 I think my head is caving in. I watched An Interview with a Vampire today. It was pretty good, I enjoyed it...maybe in lue of suddenly everyone joking around that I'm a vampire. Anyway, after that The Matrix came on...boy is that a retarded movie. The beginning was stupid enough to make me realize the rest was dumb. Child's Play III was on...I think III...not really sure. That was stupid, too. Anyway, the whole thing with The Matrix was that it was just a big political (maybe not political, but you see what I mean) statement that's been in how many stories and movies since 1984...."When computers take over the world..." Frankly, I'm getting really sick of that plot. And the whole thing of who knows what's real...what we see now could be fake and so who's to say what's really real...come on. People who think that much need to just sit back, take a deep breath, and get a reality check. My word. Talk about giving yourself a complex. How come people like movies that are so...stupid on purpose? You know what I mean? Movie makers try so darn hard to make their movie different, that it just ends up being stupid...which puts it right up there with all the other movies they're trying not to be like. For a movie to be different, it has to be real...it has to have a certain real quality that people can hold on to. What the heck was I supposed to hold on to in The Matrix? Yeah, I know plenty of times when I got a computer program shoved into the back of my head...boy I sure can relate to Neo. =P Some could say that movies are supposed to be an escape from reality...I guess those are the people that enjoy movies like The Matrix, etc. I say that movies are to entertain...to put us in the lives of someone else...but there has to be an element of real or it doesn't feel as if we're there. Does anyone see what I mean? Man, I need to write a column in the paper. 10:32 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Oh man, everything's so weird. Ever since my sleeping got messed up, I've been feeling really crappy. Right now, I'm having sickening pains in my sinuses. My body is like craving salt...I just ate some fries covered in salt and almost dumped the rest of the salt in my mouth. I don't know what's up with that. Ok, and isn't it supposed to be getting nice out??? I NEED MY SPRING TO COME! Grrr. I was feeling really weird at the sports banquet the other night. I just had this over-whelming feeling of "I want to go home". Then I got a sharp pain in my head and my stomach was hurting. =/ I think I'm going to go call Becka. 4:15 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sorry people about not posting very often. The sports banquet, first of all, really messed up my sleeping schedule. That night I went to bed at 8:30. Then yesterday I went to bed at 4 PM. Every morning I've been up at 6:30! It's awful. Anyway, now my schedule is going to really be screwed up with the recent events. I just got done coloring "Chet" (that mouse for my church I've mentioned before). Six pictures of him, actually. That was tedious. =P And man alive, I'm getting some kind of migraine or sinus headache...owie. My face hurts!! And Eric picks now to go on a trip. :P 1:31 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Saturday, March 23, 2002 My grandpa died. :( 11:22 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Thursday, March 21, 2002 THIS is what happens when I have a free day. :| 3:01 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- I just finished getting up a new layout over at Journey!!! Go take a look! It's featuring Vanessa Carlton who sings "A Thousand Miles"...I really like that song. <3 Funny, it didn't take me long to put it up. Hmm. Anyway, I thought the guys over there would appreciated, lol, and I appreciate it because #1. I made it. #2. It's pretty! Lol. Ok, I'm done babbling. Did I mention I haven't been to sleep yet? =D 12:16 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Do you know how awesome it is to decide to try on your prom dress (that you wore 10 months ago) and it practically falls off of you?! Oh man, it's a great feeling! I knew I lost weight (10-12 lbs.) since graduation, but I didn't really have anything to go by but the scale...until I tried on my social dress this morning. I remember that night...May 4th. I was sooo uncomfortable! That dress is a pretty big size (I won't say here) and I mainly had to get a bigger size because of...(ok, I won't say that here either :| ) and it was all tight and uncomfortable. Now it practically fell off of me...of course that means that every part of my body has gotten smaller...if you know what I mean, but oh well, I'm still bigger than my friends, HA HA! Ok, that was embarrassing. Anyway, I went through all my dresser drawers and started trying on my summer stuff (my halter top, for instance) and wow, that was so cool seeing how skinny I looked in it (ok, so I'm still not like Gwen Steffani skinny, but way skinnier than I was before...ok, so I was a stick in 7th grade, but that was before...nevermind.) Hmm, was this post an overshare? Nope. Hey, did you enjoy my quiz results? (look below) Very nifty, indeed. Yeah right, I WISH I looked like that girl in the first pic. =P Oh hey, Make 7 UP YOURS! Ha ha! 9:04 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- What's Your Style? Find out @ She's Crafty Which Rainbow Brite kid are you? By Growing. See what Care Bear you are. See what Care Bear you are. It was a tie. :| 5:01 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok, stupid head. Update the page and everything and even add a new post, yet not say everything that was updated. Ok, here goes. The friends page has some updates. Along with the poetry page (the "Dreaming" poem was added!). I took some M.I.A. cliques off the cliques/rings page, as well as the adored/loved page. (PS. To become a sister/brother site or to exchange links, please email me at rosepetals01@hotmail.com or drop me a line through the form!) The about the site page was updated, of course, to ad the new layout but also I changed around the part under "future" so check that out. I added two new items to the STORE!!! And I believe that's it for updates. =D 4:32 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok, screw everything I said about the layout before, lol. I went for the Hello Kitty one. I probably will put the beach one up after this one, but not sure yet. Oh, and Eric, I know it was you who signed my guestbook. *huggles* 2:32 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Wednesday, March 20, 2002 Oh my goodness, how could I have forgotten??!! We got a DVD player. I came downstairs the other night and saw a box on the floor and I said, "What's a new VCR doing down here?" My brother looked at me and said, "It's a DVD player!" Then I pointed out to my dad when he got home, "You know, if you guys would have let me buy that PS2, we would have a DVD player already." Then the rest of the family chimed in that it would be as good as this superior DVD player my dad bought. Whatever. Anyway, I believe I'm going to put the 'butt' layout up...then the Hello Kitty when I get sick of that. Then the beach when I get sick of Hello Kitty. Yay! I'm also going to chang the cam pic around cuz it sucks. 11:17 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, March 19, 2002 I think I may die. I was heating up chicken and rice soup and the plastic wrap that was covering it fell into it and I saw the soup bubbling around it. I thought that maybe the plastic had melted a bit into the soup, but wasn't sure, so I took a bite. Yep. Major meltage there. Yuck. So I ended up throwing the whole bowl of soup away. I was still hungry, so I warmed up some sweet potatoes in pineapple and orange sauce. Yuck, that's really gross. So I just snacked on some unheathy junk. Don't really care. Now I kinda want to warm up the chicken and stars soup, but I've had enough microwave activity for a while. Ok, I need to set up a poll...I have a new layout I'm working on featuring Hello Kitty, also a beach themed one, but then I kinda want to put the butt one back up. Hmm. Ok, I just took screen caps of the layouts I'm talking about. Ok, now go to that little form I have on my site and send me an email saying which one you like better. =) Thanks! 11:56 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- I'm butt ugly. =P I'm trying something different with my webcam. I have it set up on my tripod (first time I've used it in two years!!) and just trying to be weird. My dad thinks it's on live or something. He just told me, "We're not running a webcam!" It's not on, duh. Anyway, I look like a dork, but that was the best picture I could get out of it, so there ya go. Tomorrow, it'll be in it's normal spot...though I'm thinking about making it small again because when you make it bigger, the quality gets crappier. Oh well. Sports Banquet is Friday, woo hoo. I have to help out that day, gotta go there at 12 PM!!!!! Aaaahhh! Too early! How the heck am I gonna pull that off? And then the thing doesn't start until way later. Geez. Oh well. I like being places early and helping out, then you feel all cool and stuff whenever people show up and you know what's going on and they don't. Ha ha. I'm in a weird mood today. Exactly one week from now is the senior's Pizza Hut thing...wait, didn't they do this already? Oh yeah, they did! Dorks. I guess they feel the need to do it two times a year now...either Becka or Katie told me they're going to New York (gasp, isn't that the senior trip the snobs wanted to go on last year? Hmm...) to get killed. No, seriously, they're going to New York to have a sucky time. Yep. Whatever floats their boat I guess. They're renting two RV's and driving there. Good luck, I guess. 10:18 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- *dies* Oh my heavens is that one gorgeous guy! 4:52 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Monday, March 18, 2002 Dreaming Moon beams in the corner You inside my head. Time goes by so slowly As I'm dreaming in my bed. A part of me is hoping That I might catch a peek Of the peaceful look upon your face As you lay asleep. If only I could be there To gently touch your skin A kiss upon your forehead Then carefully tuck you in. But I can only dream And hope it'll come to be Secretly wondering if You're peacefully dreaming of me. Um, I got inspired to write a poem early this morning. When the inspiration hits, I go with it since poetry comes really hard to me. But I'm really please with how this turned out. =) Oh, and I changed around how the webcam pic works. So check that out. Nothing else much to say. 10:48 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sunday, March 17, 2002 Ick, my stomach has been feeling weird lately. All I can think of to eat that won't make it hurt more are pop tarts and water. So that's basically what I've been eating all day. No, I did have some chicken noodle soup. That was really good, but other than that it's been strawberry pop tarts. Three so far. I got to talk to Becka today on the phone for an hour or so. That was cool. She said she'd call me back, but around 3 today I took a nap and didn't wake up until 8, so I'm going to be online here for a while, lol. It massively snowed today. I'm talking FAT snow flakes, man. The kiddies might have a delay tomorrow. Dang it. 11:13 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok, changed the cam pics page around. I'm putting each months cam pictures up on separate pages. I don't have many for March...basically because I look butt ugly this month. =P What's the deal? For some reason, my fingers and hands look really skinny. Just my luck that when I lose weight it's in my HANDS! Grrr. I want to go to the store today to get stuff...but it's like sleeting or something outside now. Plus, I'm feeing really lazy right now and don't really feel like going anywhere. =P Major Payne is on TV right now. Man, that movie is funny. Daymon Wayans is hilarious! =) 1:28 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Um, the youth center majorly sucked tonight. I don't know what the deal was with that. Derek and I sat upstairs and watched Trading Spaces while the children around us yelled at the top of their lungs. Then Katie joined us and asked a bunch of stupid questions about the show. Derek and I seemed to be the only huge Trading Spaces fans in the room, but it was cool to talk about it with him. Then he and Tony E. decided to annoy the crap out of me by arguing back and forth, Tony being outside the kitchen and Derek being inside, in stupid voices over what Tony would buy with his quarter. I opted to just give him the quarter back, along with the two other guys standing with Tony. I think they were annoyed, too. They also made a mess with the first aid kit. Ronnie made them come into the kitchen and clean it up. It was funny because then Ronnie looked at me and told me that I could close the kitchen if I wanted to since it was almost time to go. It's a good feeling for someone to pick you over the 23 year old as the more responsible one, lol. I have nothing else to say. 1:08 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Saturday, March 16, 2002 Today was soooo great! It was so nice outside! It got up to 70°!!! It was nice even into nighttime. I went to the youth center and we all went and sat outside on the front porch thing and talked and laughed. Then it started sprinkling, so we all went inside, but it was so nice! And birds are chirping outside!!! Yay!!! Oh, I'm so happy right now about sooo many things! =D **Even though my many "guy opportunties" got shot down tonight, I still find myself able to be happy. That is something amazing if you know me, lol. I don't think I'll even be able to sleep!** 6:20 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Friday, March 15, 2002 1. What's your favorite animal? Cats, they're so cute! 2. What pets have you had in your lifetime? A cat, a fish, two more fish, four or five hamsters. 3. Is there any specific pet that you've wanted but never had? I want a new kitty cat right now, but my cat hates other cats, so we can't. 4. Are you allergic to any animals? Horses, rabbits, cats, dogs, you name it, I'm allergic. But for the most part, I just deal with it. I only get allergic to cats if I like scratch my eye after touching him or get his hair up my nose, lol. Horses, just being around them I go crazy. Rabbits it takes awhile being around them to get me started. 5. Do you have any 'pet' pet peeves (your pets or others')? When my cat lays on my stomach or lap when I'm watching TV, when he yawns in my face, when he gets up at my food, when he scratches me (not out of anger, out of playing or when he curls his claws when I'm petting him), when the hamster residing in my room shows signs of life, when my cat insists on walking right in front of me and weaving back and forth so I almost trip 500 times. It is sooooooo incredibly nice outside! It feels like summer! I never realized how soothing it was to hear birds chirping. =) Wow, it's great. I stayed in bed all day, basically because I didn't want to have to deal with my family, but I had some pretty cool dreams. One dream I broke my arm, that was weird, but they were like adventure dreams, solving stuff...you know. Very cool. *good, happy sigh* I'm in such a good mood right now. =) 6:38 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok, so for sleeping in all day yesterday, I'm making up for it now. I have now gone for 26 hours without sleeping. Only now am I getting tired.....really tired. I went to the talent show thing tonight. I took my drawing of "The Dream 2" in, but then saw two other drawings and wished I'd never even tried. Geez. Anyway, my brother's band acted all retarded and stalled everyone for about five mintues being stupid, then Tony didn't even sing the words to that dumb Creed song right. The funny skits were cool....especially the wrestling one that Brett, Tony R., and Chris W. did. That was hilarious. They won, actually, in the funny part. Barry's funny video was AWESOME. That boy is very creative. Everyone laughed through the whole thing, while Dan's barely got a chuckle from me....though all the stupid little girls at school who are in love with him laughed their butts off. Oh well, Barry's video won in that category (duh, if it wouldn't have, I would have demanded a recount!). Deanna and Ashley (two of the three fellow grads of mine) were there and I sat with them in the beginning. Then we all went downstairs and ate and then it was time for the tournaments. Games and crap. The guys generally hung out where the three video game things were hooked up and the girls kinda wandered around looking for something to do. Becka was a game coordinator (for chess, lol) so I couldn't really talk to her, plus Maggie was with her so she was just kinda ignoring me. :| Anyway, so I tried to hang out with Deanna and Ashley, but they were just kinda hanging out with each other....and some of the younger guys, but I won't go there. Then I just kinda lurked. Talked to Chris Mc (he's really cool), talked to Amy (his gf), talked to Katie, talked to Isaac, talked to Brett (who asked me to sign my arm and later on, I asked him to draw something on me, cuz I was in that mood where if someone played with my hair.....yeah, I'm sure you've all heard it by now =P but anyway, watching people write, especially on me really relaxes me and puts me to sleep....anyway, Brett ended up just writing something....I think it says, "Hey Mary, love ya Cheeseball [his name in the wrestling skit] with his little B.A.S. symbol). Amy's older brother Keith was there. Yeah, he's cute, but I've never really been all THAT interested in him. Anyway, after being molested by Jeannette and just about every other girl there, we all went upstairs to hear the winners announced. I sat down in an end seat by myself and Amy, Chris Mc and Keith all came behind me and wanted to sit in the row in front. I said something stupid like, "Well, I don't want to sit by myself" and I motioned for Amy to sit next to me, but she said that some other girl asked her to sit in that row, so I moved up to the front, meaning to sit somewhere near Amy, but I ended up sitting next to Keith. Hmm, wasn't planned but worked out a-ok, lol. Anyway, here's how it went after that. Keith: Hi, you're name is...? Me: Mary Keith: Mary? Mary. *looks away* Me: Um, ok.....should I ask what his name is? But I know his name? How about, "And you're Keith, right?"...no you retard, that's dumb. Just keep your mouth shut. Me: I drew number three up there *points to picture #3 on the wall* Keith: *looks at me strangely, then looks at wall* Really? Very nice. *looks away* Me: What is his problem? I've heard that he's weird..but this weird?? Then they start playing music....basically this whole time I'm trying to get him to at least look at me and maybe start a conversation, but he basically keeps his head turned away. This makes me very self-conscious, so I just give up. Then, stupid head Dan tells everyone to stand up if they want to and of course my whole row except for Chris Mc (who had a headache) stands up, so I do, so that Keith doesn't think I'm like anti-religious and don't participate in the praise and worship music that the band is playing....not like I sang anyway, or anything. Then after a while, Keith sits down. I stay standing because Amy is. Then she sits down. ..........Ok, so I sit down and try to act like I was never standing in the first place. Then, in the middle of the song, they get up and leave. As Keith walks in front of me and around the seat, he gently knocks me in the head. I look up at him and kinda smile, though confused at what he's doing and I think he was smiling or something. This sends me into a weird well of, "What the heck was that? Does he think I like him? Was that flirting??" So, immediately after the band is done, I go over to Derek (who was there, duh) and say, "What does it mean when a guy like, hits you in the head? Not hard, but you know what I mean." And Derek demonstrates to see if he does. "Yes, that" I say. He says, "It's flirting." I say, "Ok, Keith just did that to me...I wasn't sure how to take it." He gets a weird look on his face. "Yeah, well, Keith's a little weird." (lol) "Yes, I know," I reply. "So I've heard." I walk away and over to Becka, who is still hanging out with Maggie. "Becka," I say. "Did you see me sitting next to Keith?" She nods. "Did you see him hit me in the head as he left?" "Oh," Becka responds. "He does that to every girl." Oh, gee thanks. Sure it was weird when I thought it was flirting or it was because he thought I was cute or something, but now Becka has to go and say that. Mmmm, whatever. Liz (lol) told me I looked pretty tonight, so I don't care. She's always so nice. My favorite hoodie is in desperate need of washing. I let Maggie wear it tonight for a short time and was almost embarrassed to give it to her. The sleeves and stuff are all dirty, you know. So, I took it off and put stain stick stuff on it...I'm thinking about letting it sit for a week, lol. Also, I got chocolate on it from when I was helping Liz put these fat peices of cake into these tiny zip lock bags while they were still on the plate. It was craziness I say. That was probably the funnest part of the night, joking around with Liz about the fat pieces of cake and how I kept ruining them and then she kept ruining them trying to show me how to do it. Oh, I also made a play dough version of Katie, hee hee. She told me to, that's why. Ok, I'm slowly drifting off to sleep. Goodnight. 1:10 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Wednesday, March 13, 2002 I think something's wrong with me. I went to bed around 4 AM last night, woke up at one PM to get on the computer, but my dad was using it, so I went back to sleep. Didn't wake up until 7 PM. You'd think I'd be wide awake for a while, but I bet I'll be getting tired here soon. I had some good dreams, though. Some freaky...some good. The one really good one was I was at this school or something and it was night time. It was really dark out and I didn't know the place well and I was scared to walk over to where I was supposed to go. I knew that there we guys behind me, but they were kinda like jerks and stuff, all acting tough and whatever. Anyway, I reached my hand back and said, "Can someone walk me over there? I don't want to alone through the dark." And this one guy walked up, took my hand, and led me over there. It was like he was one of those guys who tries to act all tough, but he's really sweet inside. Wow, what a moment, lol. My stomach hurts. A stomach ache actually woke me up twice last night. I haven't really eaten anything today except two breadsticks from Fazolli's and I drank a Dr. Pepper. My dad came home from church with a drawing of a mouse that I was supposed to scan and color. The freakin' thing is butt ugly. I scanned it anyway and colored it and just sent the file to my pastor. Wow. *sigh* 10:44 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- "Don't let a soulmate pass you by." From the new Garbage song. I'm really longing for summer again. I can't wait till I can get to go to Hershey Park and swim and lay out! Woo hoo! Ok, so maybe not the layout out part, but anyway, I really want summer to come!!! There's always the anticipation that I might get to do these things with really cool people *cough*a guy*cough*. But, that hasn't happened yet. A lot of stuff hasn't happened yet. I'm such a loser. 3:07 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Well, I eventually went to bed today. Fell asleep around 2 PM and slept until 8:30 PM then got in the shower. Now I'm all snuggly soft, smelling good, and still tired. What is up with the internet tonight??? Everytime I try to go to a site it brings it up "Cannot find server"...then I just click refresh and there it is. Stupid. Mmm, my hair smells like strawberries. Like I'm sure you care. Dagnabbit, now I can't talk on the mic because my dad came down here to sleep for some stupid reason. Argh. I'm so freakin' frustrated about all kinds of stuff. 12:20 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, March 12, 2002 Ok, so that cam pic lies. I didn't actually sleep. I thought about it, but I didn't. I'm sorry, but whenever I go through that time when I have really freaky dreams, I HATE sleeping. Also, there's something I keep thinking about that keeps my mind racing and makes it hard for me to fall asleep anyway (oh please, nothing bad, just something I don't want to say here =P). I got to listen to three and a half hours of the Bob and Tom show. Woo hoo. Man, those commercials on the Revolution are so dang annoying. I had to turn the radio down when they came on. My eyes kinda dried out and I'm thinking about putting eye drops in...they kinda scare me though, lol. Yikes, my dad just came in. What the heck, I thought he was up at the building. Now he's gonna know that I stayed up all night again. Oh well. Who cares. Woo hoo, this is fun. 9:56 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Woo hoo! Got the new layout up!!! Yay! Much better than that old stinky brown one. What was I thinking??? 3:01 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Monday, March 11, 2002 Alright, this layout sucks already. I got my Teen magazine today (please don't laugh) and I got inspiration from a shoe ad (please don't laugh). I'm going back with pink (please don't laugh) and maybe as accenting colors navy blue and white. I'm thinking of having either stars or bubbles....but kinda leaning more towards stars. It would be nice if I could actually draw a shoe on the page and use that for the layout (please don't laugh) but I've never been good at drawing shoes (please don't laugh). This is going to be one of those layouts that I work a long time on. Maybe I'll have it be a sporty theme. I'm a sporty-girl poser, hee hee. Oh yeah, at this moment, I'd like to share my quiz results from this magazine. (Questions in bold, answer I chose in normal font and my comments in italics) 1. You're on the phone with a friend who's telling you awesome gossip when your boyfriend calls on the other line needing to talk. You: a. Tell your friend you'll call her back later, then counsel your distressed dude. Must they word the answers so stupidly??? 2. Your guy invites you to his grandmother's birthday brunch. You know his whole family will be attending the shindig, so you tell him: a. you'd absolutely love to go, then ask what you should wear. Do people actually talk like this? 3. You and your best friend always shoe shop together. Your boyfriend needs a new pair of sneaks and wants to come. Are you cool with that? a. Of course. You love the fact that he's not afraid to hang out with the girls. No, more like "Duh, I love shoes. The more I get to look at the better and bless my boyfriend's little heart for loving them too!" 4. Even though your boyfriend is not romantic, Valentine's Day is coming up and it'll hurt your feelings if he ignores the whole thing. You: Ok, I wasn't sure about this question. Answer "a" says that "you plan the whole evening"...and that's what I would do if my bf wanted to go out, but wasn't creative and didn't want to plan it. Answer "b" says that "you hang out with your single friends to save him the mushy misery"...I'd do that if he didn't want to take part in that day at all. So basically, it depends on the guy. 5. Your mom and your latest dude have a hate-hate relationship. She thinks he's an irresponsible idiot; he thinks she's a controlling nightmare. You handle the supersticky situation by: Again, this one is a tie. "A" says that "you arrange time for him to come to dinner so they can get to know each other"...I'd do that if the relationship was getting serious. But I'd chose "b" if it was just starting..."b" says "make sure they're never in the same place at the same time." 6. You start dating a boy who hangs with a completely different crowd than you do. He invites you to sit with his group at lunch. Will you? Another tie...but this time between "a" and "c". Yes (a) I'd sit with his group of friends and get to know them better, but also (c) I'd expect him to sit with MY group of friends, too. 7. You invite your boyfriend out to a fancy restaurant with you and your ultraconservative parents. He shows up at your house wearing his baggy jeans and favorite concert shirt. When you see him, you: a. explain the situation to you parents and suggest eating at a more casual eatery. Then excuse myself and my bf outside and ask him what he was thinking when he dressed like that...no, I'm just kidding. And, tallying up the scores I see that I am Girlfriend of the Year! "We've got to hand it to you--you're one relationship-ready gal...Make sure your boy treats you with equal care and respect--you certainly deserve it." I KNEW IT ALL ALONG! 11:31 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Taping at the church was alright. Besides the fact that in the 2nd or 3rd message, Tracy's glasses broke and then he made some weird analogy using a liver...that was funny, he almost started laughing. Then, it was craziness trying to follow him from the chalkboard to the pulpit because he would act like he was going to the board, so I'd go to camera B, but then he'd turn back around and go to the pulpit. Argh. During the taping, this really fat lady bug got inside one of the lights and started burning up. It smoked for about two minutes and it really stunk up the room. Last time we taped that happened about 50 times, but this one was really bad...that thing was FAT, no joke. Tracy's messages were really good. He was talking about marriage. When God made Adam in His likeness, he put His qualities into Adam...qualities that were needed to rule the earth, but Adam needed help, so God took the rib from Adam and made Eve, taking some of those qualities out of Adam. Often in the Bible it says about God's grace and truth. My pastor basically said that women find it easier to deal with grace (nurturing, loving, patience, etc...motherly, in other words) and for men truth comes easier (justice, teaching, etc.). And since Eve was made from a part of Adam, there's this need to to be together again, to bring the qualities back together. Hence marriage. Marriage joins grace and truth, man and woman back together. Aww. Tracy said it much better than I did and of course he had verses to go along. If ya want, you can give me your address and I can send ya some copies for free! =D How about that! Lol. You know, I'm thinking about just not going to the youth center anymore. Not even to work there. Do you know what they say when I show up? If my brother's with me, they say, "MIKE! HEY, MIKE HOW YA DOING??!!" while I just walk past. When my brother's not with me, they say, "Where's Mike? Why didn't he come? Tell him to come next time." hardly saying hi to me...not even asking how I am. They BEGGED my brother and my parents to get him to go to convention....not once was I asked if I was going by a youth leader. I think Amy asked me if I was going, and so did "hot girl". But not once by Ronnie, Derek, or Tonia. And I just found out that Dave was fired. Dave....my favorite guy from the youth center...hardly shows up anymore. I mean, what's the point? Actually, what I want to know is, what's so special about my dumb brother? It's been like this my whole life. This one time really stands out in my head. After the Splendor when I was in 10th grade (I didn't go =P) a bunch of people were going roller skating for the "after glow" and me and my brother went. All these girls there kept asking my brother how old he was and getting all giggly around him and like following him around. I could hardly get my friends to talk to me. That really bothered me then...and it still does now. Especially when today in church my brother starts yelling at me, "Why don't you get a job? You're so lazy! Go to college! Get a job! Blah blah blah blah blah." He thinks he's so cool now because he has a paper route. Oooo. It's in like the drug center of Altoona...all the drug raids happen there. Oh well, like I care. He has to get up at 5:30 AM...and I'm usually up then. He better not expect me to help out. Argh and when I'm trying to have a NORMAL conversation with my parents about college (we're discussing my FUTURE here, very important) all he says is, "You're so lazy! Get a job! Go to college! You're so stupid!" and when I say that I'm thinking about majoring in psychology like I planned all along... Father: "Why don't you study REAL science? Psychology is just garbage." Me: "Psychology is the science of the mind. It's not like I want to be a psychiatrist or counselor or anything...I want to do research stuff." Father: "Then study science." Mother: "Science is neat, I like science. That would be fun." Me: "I want to do those studies where they give people placebos (sp??), or see how well people can lie about stuff, you know?" *gets a crazed look from father* Father: "Then go to college." No freakin duh. Wasn't that what the conversation was all about?? Ok, I'm just gonna stop right there...getting way to worked up over this. 12:13 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sunday, March 10, 2002 Argh. Frustration. Close friends...be warned...you're going to hear details from me later. I'm going up to the church today to tape. Wahoo. Yeah, that's my day. That's all I'm doing. 2:42 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- For some reason, a line from Gone with the Wind keeps going around in my head. I think it's because I'm trying to figure out the exact words. "You need kissed...often and by someone who knows how." -Rhett Oh, and an explination on "hot girl"...Ok, at the youth center last weekend, we were all playing around with these three cell phones. Tonia got a hold of Derek's and she was looking through his phone number list. It was in alphabetical order, so she was flipping through the names and then came across a number that was labeled "Hot Girl". We tried to find out who "hot girl" was, but he wouldn't tell us. Tonia, I guess, figured out who it was and someone else there knew who she was. He said that he was going to get to hang out with her on Wednesday and I totally forgot about that until AFTER church on Wednesday when I was asking my brother if he knew who that girl was that was there. She was really nice and her name is Larissa. I got to talk to her a bit (while my friends were ditching me =P) and suddenly it all came together. SHE was hot girl. I'm sorry, but I wouldn't call her "hot". I know that I'm a girl, but...come on. Anyway, it was funny because Katie said, "How much you wanna bet that Derek or Ronnie ask her out by the end of this week?" and I could totally see that happening. I just posted that because some people had asked who "hot girl" was. Oh, and if you want to know what a C.O.A. (or coa for typing's sake) is....you'll have to email me. =D 1:27 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Saturday, March 09, 2002 Hey hey hey, got a new art work section up!!!! Go check out my drawings! 1:38 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Dear God, someone save me. 12:03 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Thursday, March 07, 2002 I just found out why my Bravenet counter isn't working anymore. They're having problems and it should be back up soon. I don't think my form is working on this site or on Journey, so if you want to contact me, just email me. Same thing if you want to join Journey, which I would just love it if you applied. =) 11:50 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- New layout is up! 9:33 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- I just got done making a new layout! Yippee! I wanted a spring-y layout, but that's not exactly what I came up with. It actually looks like summer or fall, but oh well. I like it. It's actually not very creative at all, but it looks really cool! Lol. I just used a fairy picture I found then use some cool brushes and there ya go. I'll be getting it up in the next few days. Yay. 5:49 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Went to youth group. That was a waste. I sat upstairs with Ronnie and Derek's "hot girl" while they talked about the kids who fasted and crap. I almost fell asleep. Then the guy who preached didn't really tell us anything new, I came away learning nothing. Praise and worship took forever and then we split up into groups and were asked stupid questions. Ashley and Liz showed up and they hung out with Katie, while totally ignoring me. It was fine with just me and Katie before they came. Then as soon as they showed up, the three would run off together and when I would go join them, they'd split up and go some place else. Liz kept stepping in front of me, blocking my view of Ashley whenever she would talk, basically just pushing me out of their group. Oh well, they're jerks anyway. I talked to "hot girl", though. She's nice. Jesse showed up, then left right away before I could say hi. I almost got hit by a ball numerous times. Pat showed up. He got his lip pierced and I guess got a tattoo on his chest. Nifty. I let coa #1 borrow my Day's Inn pen, reminding her several times to give it back when she was done. Nope, didn't give it back. *sigh* I'm surrounded by idiots. 1:00 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, March 05, 2002 Nothing going on yesterday, hence the no blogging. Nothing going on today, just didn't want you to think I died. Well, not much to say. Maybe more tomorrow...I think I'm going to go to youth group. 3:45 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sunday, March 03, 2002 I hate it when I go to the mall and am unsuccessful at finding anything. There are NO GIRL HOODIES to be found! Not only that, FYE didn't have Jimmy Eats World OR Phantom Planet...and neither did Walmart (I didn't expect them to anyway). TJ Maxx doesn't even have hoodies. Dang. 3:57 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Saturday, March 02, 2002 Oops. 1. What's your favorite vacation spot? Ocean City, New Jersey 2. Where do you consider to be the biggest hell-hole on earth? Altoona, PA 3. What would be your dream vacation? Going to Ocean City, NJ with a bunch of COOL friends that I love to be with and having tons of money to go shopping on the boardwalk :D 4. If you could go on a road-trip with anyone, who would it be and why? Definitely Becka...yeah, Becka would have to be my choice. 5. What are your plans for this weekend? Going to the youth center and drooling on Randy, HA HA HA *sigh* Stupid head Randy. I think he has a girlfriend. He left with this girl who showed up at the youth center out of the blue. I was suprised, though, that a guy actually TALKED TO ME! He was playing basketball and I walked over to skip the slow boring songs on the CD we were playing and he asked if I could put in Nickleback, lol. I said nope, only Christian music, but if it were up to me, I'd let him put it in. He seemed like a nice guy. Some other guy hurt his foot. That was gross. Everyone was like, "I heard it SNAP!" I almost threw up. 11:12 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- *sigh* Waiting for my mom to come home with food. Wondering if I should get a shower before going to the youth center (I really don't feel like it, though). Here is a link to all the skins I've posted on Skin Stop. My newest is the Rainbow Brite one...which I'm using now. I really like it. :) Now I'm wondering what shirt I'm going to wear to the youth center. I know I'm going to wear those pants with the split in the bottom, which I think I wore last week, but oh well. Oh yeah, that's right, I was just planning on wearing my Roxy hoodie. Maybe put my hair in messy-bun pigtails, lol. Wouldn't that be cute. 6:07 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Friday, March 01, 2002 <--I've got my "I just came from the beach look" going on tonight. Used my "beach blonde" spray stuff...I smell like suntan lotion. Randy was at the youth center. I didn't say one word to him. He came two hours late, then C.O.A. #1 came along and just about ruined my night. Derek's the only one who likes when I wear my hair like this. I got hit in the head with a basketball. Luckily, it bounced off my head (where you'd hit a soccer ball, so it didn't hurt) and then hit Katie in the eye (lol). That made it better. I'm wearing my contacts even though my eyes are bloodshot. They don't hurt or anything, but now my contacts are getting dry. I need to go wash my makeup off. Yes, I wore makeup. That is very rare. It was all for Randy...stupid boy. 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