| Thursday, January 31, 2002
You wanna see what I did to waste my time? Here...I'll show you...             
Yup, I love to waste my time. =D 6:40 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok, I'm a tad upset about something someone just said. Not going to mention it here cuz they might actually read this. =P Argh, some people... 3:53 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Wednesday, January 30, 2002 Got a new page up with pics of me and my friends. Go check it out! 11:59 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok, freaky. I just got an email from some one I do not know...and in the subject line it said, "Re: " as if they're replying to an email I sent. Um, no. Never saw their email address before in my life. And then, there's not even a message, there's two attachments. The one says that it's a .txt file, but when I click on it for MacAfee (on Hotmail) to scan it for viruses, it's not a .txt file, it's an ms dos application..??? The other file said something about an mp3, so I clicked on that and IT HAS A VIRUS ON IT! Good thing when you click on them it doesn't download, and the virus thing says that there's no cure for that virus. Holy crap, who is this person? I wrote them an email asking where they got my email address. It's not on my Yahoo profile anymore, because of my changing to the new one. Freaky... 8:42 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Well, I got a new clique up. It's call the Elite Clique Pickers Clique. Actually, I just now realized that it should be "Pickers'" but oh well, lol. Too late now. Go and see what it's all about. :) 3:00 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, January 29, 2002 I guess people don't think it's too weird that I'm blogging on this ^^ girl's butt, huh? Lol. Thanks to the people of i.berry for all the positive feedback. ^_~ Dang, I had a bunch of stuff I wanted to say...but I lost it. Lol. Ummm...hmmm... Valentine's Day...freakin stores that put out Valentine's now...freakin Yahoo websites that have hearts and crap all over them. Argh. =/ I've realized that I can be quite annoying sometimes...oh well. Everyone's annoying at one point, I guess. But, when you start to annoy your self...that's kinda sad, lol. 3:33...make a wish.....*makes a wish*........Dang, I think I was too late. Oh, my sister got this CD club thing in the mail the other day. It had the Linkin Park CD in it (which my brother and I are currently fighting over) and a charge of $2.08 for the shipping and handling...and no one knows where it came from. Since it was addressed to my sister and she keeps getting online ALL the time now, my dad thinks that she signed up for it over the internet. Most of the papers and stuff that cam along with the CD are in Spanish...it's a Spanish CD club...well, the music isn't in Spanish, but you know what I mean. Like, usually stuff from here is in English and the Spanish is smaller and to the side. This time, the Spanish is big and the English is small and to the side. And there's no phone number to call and ask how Megan got signed up. Not to mention that where a 1 should be in our address, there's an upside-down exclamation point...? Beats me. But anyway, we're sitting on this thing (well, my PARENTS are sitting on it) saying they don't want to join (duh), yet they don't want to send the "cancel" card back because of a whole list of stupid reasons. And I'm like, "Well, we gotta pay for the freakin CD...I'll give you the freakin $2.08!" Lol, $2.08 for a Linkin Park CD! Heck yeah! Anyways, huge arguments in my home have errupted over this CD club...and I think my sister is actually hiding how it got to our house. I think she did sign up for something online. Mmm mmm mmm. *shakes head* Hey, I'm in a good mood. Look how much a blog when I'm in a good mood. =D Hee hee. Man, I'm getting hot. 3:49 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Monday, January 28, 2002 New email address. If you wanna get a hold of me, you can contact me at rosepetals01@hotmail.com. Umm, that's it. 11:06 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sunday, January 27, 2002  Daria is the poster child for "teen misfit," and holds in high contempt what she sees as the shallowness and superficiality of the world around her. She is also cynical -- though she'd say she's "realistic" -- and mistrustful of authority, and doesn't hesitate to make her opinions known when she sees fit. She has a talent for writing, a sharp intellect, an even sharper tongue (her sarcasm could cut tempered steel), and a wit so dry it makes the Sahara look like a rain forest. 10:42 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- I made my own Sponge Bob webring. Go take a looksee ^_~ 10:33 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- My house just got invaded by youth center people. Derek, Ronnie, and Jamie to be exact. Jamie was running all over our house and she wanted to see my room. =P Um, no. Ugh, yeah, just feel like you can walk in and tramp around wherever you want. 8:48 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Argh, I guess I should blog. =P I don't know about what, though. Kelly finally came around the youth center again. I guess she's been in Florida or something. So, that was cool getting to see her again. Becka got me looking at prom dresses and now I wanna go to my old school's social. I would say that I could probably go with Brett (who was supposed to call me today about seeing LOTR, but remember how that worked out last time =P) but he'll probably end up going with his new "love". Dang it. I found a really pretty dress too, lol. Yay, Valentine's Day is coming up. (sarcastic) I'm not in a good mood, lol. I haven't been in a good mood all weekend. Well, I was in a pretty good mood at the youth center, but to keep that kind of mood going, I have to have others responding in positive ways. When the people you call your friends sit there and ignore you, that kinda brings your good mood down. Not to mention that the only person actually paying attention to you is the girl you swore you'd hate forever (*coughcough* katie *coughcough*). Yes, all the sudden, Katie is waving to me from the basketball court, waving to me when I come in to the youth center, talking to me, laughing with me, blah blah blah. It's kinda weird... I've been feeling....kinda alone recently...I don't know why. I need to hang out with my 'friends' more often I guess. I really like to do stuff...you know, going places, doing cool stuff, just no one to do them with. All my friends are in school during the day and I need to take advantage of this time period where I'm DOING NOTHING ALL DAY LONG. I can't wait until the summer when my friends can do stuff with me. I love going to amusement parks like Hershey and stuff and the conference at my church is fun. Going up to Glendale lake, watching the sun set after a picnic, that's great. Ocean City, NJ, I hope, will be on the agenda this year, though we probably won't have enough money to go. *sigh* I miss the beach...and the boardwalk...and the sun.............. I think I'm going to cry. 1:10 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Saturday, January 26, 2002 It's amazing how you can be in a really good mood one minute, and then BAM you're in a crappy one. (by no fault of your own, that is) I mean, how can I be surrounded by such stupidity? All my friends wonder why I get online so much. Well, that's because if someone's stupid, you can always block or ignore them. You can't do that in real life, unfortunately. I even started to wonder myself, just last night, if I should stop getting online so much and just hang out with my real life friends more. Umm, yeah...I don't think that's going to happen. I'm so annoyed with so many people. Lol, when am I not annoyed with people? 12:31 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Thursday, January 24, 2002 Ah, today was such a nice day outside. Well, it would have been better if it were sunny out, but oh well. It got up to about 52° today. =D Darn it. Tomorrow's a basketball game and their playing teams that they beat before (and we're talking really bad, lol) and I have to run the youth center. =P I should have noticed ahead of time and then called someone to switch. Crap. 9:04 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Yuck. Last night was one of those nights where everything was weird. I got really really hot and kinda sleep walked around my room and then took off my shirt, lol. Then I went back to bed. I kept waking up hour after hour. I also had sort of a nightmare and that woke me up. Ugh. I hate nights like that. I felt like I didn't get any sleep. I slept until 3:30...that's about 11 hours of sleep, though. So, I didn't even get a chance to get on the computer until now because my sister gets on the second she walks in the door and usually stays on until 7 or 8. =/ Mmm, cheddar and sour cream chips. Yum yum. :) 4:54 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Wednesday, January 23, 2002 Dang it, dang it, dang it. Dang it to heck. I saved the message from that guy on the phone and had my dad listen to it. The guy clearly asked if we wanted tickets for January 30th. Stupid me, I thought a minute and realized that I put the wrong date. The 30th is when the drummer (Jason whatever his last name is) is going on to talk about his movie, Slackers. The 31st is when Phantom Planet's going to play. Dang it, why'd they have to do it on separate days?! Just confuse me! =P And my dad was seriously thinking about taking me...but we weren't sure how we'd get there (bus, drive, and if we drive, what about parking...). Dang it. Well, I was going to write more, but I'm talking to people and everytime they message me, I go read it, and I completely forgot what I was going to write. Lol. Oh well. 10:25 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- OH MY GOSH, OH MY GOSH, OH MY GOSH! I just got a phone call from someone from the Late Show with David Letterman! They want to know if I'm still interested in getting tickets to see PHANTOM PLANET! HECK YEAH! I really really hope my dad will take me...I doubt it though.....argh. Woo, that was exciting! Lol. 2:35 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Slow people annoy me. Me: Good Lord, are there ANY good Christian chats tonight? Lol Slow person: good christian. Slow person: Hm.. Slow person: what a label Me: Not good Christian people, duh. The chats Me: Most of them are demon possesssed, lol Slow person: I hate when people label christians like that...Good christian bad christian, better christian, not so good christian...AIGH ! that's sooooooo judgemental. Me: No duh, live it, I agree Slow person: cough :: dork Slow person: then why you be labeling christians like that yo ? Me: I'm not, didn't I just say that? Me: I'm looking for a good Christian CHAT Me: As in, talking about wholesome things Slow person: whateva. Slow person: hm. Me: Alright, yeah, I'm just gonna go check out the other Christian chats then... Slow person: you go do that I hate it when people jump to conclusions/assumptions just to start something. Are they that bored that they must TRY to start arguments? They're the kind of people that just pick someone randomly to hate. Everything you say, they find something wrong with it. Now, if you'll excuse me, my head is going to explode. 12:03 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, January 22, 2002 Ok, now I remember what I wanted to post. Quotes. Two, to be exact. One good, one bad. The good one first: "What's the big deal with going to a building? Isn't God everywhere?" -Homer Simpson "No ammount of inner beauty can hide an ugly face." -Carmen Electra, MTV, on the show Dismissed Um.....what?! I have to disagree...and I'm going to have to boycot MTV for even saying that. They basically said throw away your personality and make sure you're "good to look at". I know they were talking about the stupid show, Dismissed, and they might have even been joking, but I didn't think it was very funny. Yeah, sure, the girls they bring on that show are tall, skinny, beautiful, and parts of them are plastic, but they're jerks. I'm so angry, I might even say the other word, lol. Alright, maybe I won't but I will say that they are HOES! Hoes, hoes, hoes, hoes, hoes, and yes, I know I'm spelling that wrong. (It just looks weird as "hos", lol) Oh, I lost my train of thought. =P New member at Journey! Welcome, Simon! ^_^ Yay, everyone go check it out and see if you want to join! 11:35 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sign the guestbook, people. That's all I ask...sign it! 10:31 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Woo woo, look what I made: 
and now I have a really nice pic of me! 
My ear is ringing...that can't be good...especially since it's very high pitch. Ack. 3:30 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- I have severely burnt my tongue on the soup I heated up, lol. Owie. Well, I'm all cleaned up, I got the picture drawn, I colored it, and sent it to my pastor. *leans back in chair* Woo! Oh, hey, I got the new link up on the links page and I changed this main page a bit to add a link to Journey (the group blog). Oh, if anyone can help me think of a better name, it would be greatly appreciated! Lol. I need to dry my hair. I'll post a new pic when I do that, mmmkay? 1:45 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Hey, check out this site. I really enjoyed my time there. I'll be adding a more permanent link later on. Gotta get working on that picture, lol. 3:30 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok, screw the tagboard idea. =P None of them are working out. Oh, but I got my group blog up!!! Yay! http://fairytale.backroomcafe.org/journey.html. Wahoo! I have one member (well, two including myself), and I have all the pages up and so you can go to the join page and JOIN! Yay! Well, I guess I'd better work on that stupid picture. =P I'll be back down on the computer to color it in. Then I have to go to my church and print out the covers myself...on my own special computer they're setting up for me....I guess that's cool, lol. Hmm, I wonder if I should take a copy of Paint Shop Pro and Adobe Photo Deluxe up there so I can do more stuff up there...good idea... 2:33 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Monday, January 21, 2002 For some reason I have a School House Rock ROCKS song in my head, lol. Yes, this is the first chance I've had to get online today. My sister all the sudden decides that she wants to go to chatrooms now (I wonder why) and talk to people from India (her favorite country! *rolls eyes*). So, yeah, she was basically on the computer all day. Argh, to make things even more annoying, she signed up for a hotmail account and now uses MSN Messenger, so I have to sign in everytime I want to check my email now. And any changes she makes to hers, it makes to mine. Grrrr, why does she have to do that? And now I'm expecting a call from Becka...my brother's supposed to get off the phone at ten, so I say, "Becka, call me at 10." What time is it now? 10:10 PM and the phone is still in use. My brother's off, but my pastor called and left a half hour message for my dad, so now he has to listen...I'm sorry, Becka! Oh, there was a Becka who signed the guestbook...that was weird, lol. But thanks goes to that Becka for saying that I DON'T look like I'm twelve! *hug* Lol. OH FREAKIN CRAP! I have NOT worked on the picture my pastor wants for the cover of the January tapes that go out...not at all! Not even once THOUGHT about working on it. *slaps herself on forehead* Gosh darn it, I'm going to be up late tonight (ha ha, that's a joke) working on that stupid thing. ARGH! Ok, Becka...phone's free... Oh, one last thought. I'd like to encourage you to make use of the guestbook or form to tell me TRUTHFULLY what you think of my site. Like, when Dan gave me the suggestion to change the font colors...stuff like that. If it's REALLY bad, use the form, lol. No, just kidding...I can ALWAYS delete guestbook entries! Ha ha, lol. All joking aside, I do want some honest thoughts about my site, dealing with the content, layout, and anything else. Thanks in advance. =) 10:14 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sunday, January 20, 2002 I changed the font color to appease DAN. =P Lol, no, I thought the font color was a little light too, but since on the other pages the background is lighter, I didn't change the color on them. Not much else to say. 10:00 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- You know, a main reason I bought my class ring was so that people would see it and realized that, yes, I graduated high school. It obviously doesn't work. A conversation this morning from church: Strange lady: "So, what grade are you guys in?" (referring to me and my brother) Brother: "I'm in 11th" Me: "Oh, I graduated last year." Strange lady: *huge gasp* "I thought you were TWELVE!" ...... I laughed, inside cursing her, though. Why?! Why do people think I'm in 6th grade?! I don't think I look that young! And it didn't help that everytime someone asked where WE went to school my mom replied, "Oh, THEY go to Great Commission." I had to pop in, "NO MOM, I GRADUATED LAST YEAR, REMEMBER? VALEDICTORIAN...MADE A SPEECH...RING A BELL TO YA?!" Gosh, I hate slow people. Then people started to say, "Oh, you graduated already?" Like I'm a super-genius 12 year old and I graduated early. I don't have the body of a 12 year old...don't make me go into detail, lol. Let's just say that a shirt that fits a 12 year old would not fit me very nicely...around a certain area. I guess I'm just a early-blooming-super-genius-12-year-old. *slaps herself on forehead* Anyways, the rest of the church service was alright...they sung their hymns EXTREMELY slow...I thought I was going to die. I think I was the only one signing harmony, so I sang out...no one even noticed. =P But, my dad preached a good message and got a lot of positive feedback, so that was good. My uncle let me borrow Emperor's New Groove, so I'll be watching that some time tonight. Yay! I love that movie! Lol. Oh, and the Daria movie, "Is it College Yet?", comes on tomorrow at 8 PM on MTV, so everyone watch that! Think of me when you see Daria! Lol. 5:47 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Yay, Mike's finally online! Oh, and Chris called me today, that made me really happy. =) Now, Becka's the only one of my friends that I haven't talked to in a while (a day or two, lol) but even if she does happen to go to church tomorrow (today whatever and *gasp*) I won't see her. My dad is going to preach at a church in State College tomorrow to possibly become the pastor, so we all have to go. I'm wondering if I can still pull off my dirtball look there. They'll probably kick me out, lol. You see, my church isn't dressy-like. It's "come as you are" I guess. Some people dress up, but they just do cuz they like to. I, on the other hand, hate to dress up. I despise dressing up. I'm very very uncomfortable in dresses, skirts, and even dressy pants/shirts. Give me my jeans, cute tshirts, sneakers, and hoodies, thank you. My mom just told me not to wear "ho clothes"....I don't have any of those anyways. =P Oh my gosh, has anyone watched MTV lately? Like really really late at night? I'm talking 2-4 AM. Oh my word, they have this one commercial that is sooooo wrong. They should not be showing that at all. I don't really want to say what the commercial is for, but a guy is naked in it and they show him from behind....all behind. Yeah....disgusting. It's like those darn Candies commercials...and Safe Auto. Is Safe Auto a PA thing, or is it in other states? Anyways, their commercials are sickening. The newest one they have is you see all these people staring at something, looking really disgusted. And then they have this shot of this fat guy in boxers straightening up. He had bent down to get the paper and obviously his boxers showed a little too much. At the end, there's this guy walking his dog and he's looking at the fat guy and he raises his eyebrow real seductively and then the dog pulls him away....first of all, it's a retarded idea, second of all it's just plain wrong. Mary Poppins was on tonight. Wahoo (sarcastic). That movie is embedded in my head. Do you know how many times I watched that as a young child? I think I'm scarred. 12:38 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Saturday, January 19, 2002 *sits back* Wow. That had to be the longest hour I've ever experienced. I just kept searching and searching sites and one site would lead to another and that would lead to another.....ya get what I mean, right? Anyway, I found this really nifty blog and had to link it. Once again, I'll put up a more permanent link later. I like Valentine's day, don't you? I've never had a good experience on that day, but I just like it for some reason. Maybe it's the hope that comes along with it. Will I get something cool? Will I get asked out? (ha HA, I'm laughing so hard I'm crying) The only good Valentine I got was last year and it was from Toni.....a girl. Yeah, I think she felt bad for me, so she got me a small box of choclates and a cute card. I got her a card, too, because she told me in advance that she was getting me something. That was really nice of her, even if it was out of pity. I think I like the colors of Valentine's day...and the cute candy...hearts, I like hearts. Pink and purple, red and white...all good colors. Cherry and strawberry stuff...love those flavors. *sigh* I told my dad today how many hits my site has. He was pretty impressed, even though it's not that many, lol. He sat there, "Huh, huh...", nodding and stuff. Oh well. I love looking at my stats though. I love leaving the comp for a few hours and then coming back and seeing some new hits and then going to Bravenet and checking out the IP addresses...sometimes they decode into the actual ISP or whatever and I can see where the person is from. A couple people recently had AOL, that was cool. A few have those apple computers (whatever they are, lol). It's really neat. ..............Am I amused easily or what? I really want to start a group blog...I'm serious about this now! Lol. I want it to be for mature, adult-like people to just go and post about their day, talk to each other, etc. No swearing and stuff like that, and it'll have links back to all their sites. Wanna join? You don't have to be a girl, you can join if you're a boy, too. *bats eyelashes* Lol. Anyway, email me with the form or something if you're interested. (THE FORM WORKS!) 2:31 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Friday, January 18, 2002 Ho hum, I just deleted some stupid posts. The one where I'm whining about how I hate ice cubes, hate the word, hate when people chew/suck on them, etc. I'm bored out of my mind. I'm looking at all different web sites seeing what I've been missing with 800x600 resolution. (Not much, let me tell you, lol). No new guestbook entries, no new emails, no one online, no new posts at i.berry, my dad's watching Star Trek: the New Generation (oh joy), my mom is tending to the hamster that's in my room (no, it's not mine, she's just visiting because even though she belongs to my sister, my sister doesn't want to take care of her anymore...they "make too much noise." Oh ok, stick her in my room then. I can spare the few hours of sleep I manage to get a night. Where the heck is everyone?! This usually NEVER happens! There's always at least ONE person on that I can talk to. NADA. ZERO. ZIP. Everyone has their away messages up...or they're just stupid people, lol. Argh! =( I'm hungry. My stomach was hurting earlier and I was going to strangle my brother and sister if they even came home and spread around stomach flu germs. My pastor's son is sick, I guess...and I spent most of the day with my pastor...hopefully there were no germs along with him. Ack, my head is starting to hurt again. And I had caffeine today! My pastor makes coffee every time they have a taping. Since he knows I don't like coffee (actually, I despise coffee and other hot drinks) he bought me a 2 liter of Code Red Mountain Dew (yum yum). I drank a couple (a couple, a few, several, half the bottle, what's the difference?) cups of it....that should have been enough caffeine...maybe it's because I didn't drink any caffeine yesterday. Hmm. Anyways, my heart hurts, so I know I've had too much. I really need to quit drinking caffeine because it's really messing up my heart beat and stuff...and that CANNOT be good, lol. V8 Splash: Strawberry Kiwi is pretty good. I love strawberry kiwi stuff. Mmm mmm. It has carrot juice in it, but you can't even taste that. And I tried really hard to taste it, lol. Yeah, so I'm getting my vitamins in there. I still get headaches though! >=P You know, this may sound strange, but I'm getting really sick of LOTR. I mean, it's on every website. Every other site has a LOTR themed layout...or another LOTR quiz...along with FF X and Harry Potter (though Harry Potter isn't that bad). But LOTR is the worst of it. And every page looks the same...maybe I just keep looking at the same page, LOL. No, I don't think that's it. Dang, now that I actually see a picture of Legolas......BECKA, HE'S NOT THAT CUTE. Just like Heath Ledger. Becka drools all over him, when he's not THAT good looking. I mean, he might be slightly pleasing to the eyes, easy to stare at I guess, but I would NOT call him "hot". You already know how much I hate that description and I'm still waiting for someone to tell me what "hot" actually means. I'll give $10 to the first person who tells me a good definition, ha HA! Good Lord, where are all my friends? *looks back at post* Yeah, I'm sure they wanna talk to me today when all I've been doing is rambling. Well, I can't help it, I'm in a pretty good mood today for having to get up at 8:00 AM. =P And I haven't even taken a NAP! *gasp* I did almost fall asleep on the couch type thingy up at chuch, but I was too scare of what my pastor would do to me if he found me like that. It'd be like that one Friends where Ross drew on Rachel's face. Yeah, he would do something like that to me. *shakes head* So, I just had to lay there and think about the special people (*cough* person *cough*) in my life. *angelic smile* 11:25 PM [link] -----------------------------------------------------------  You will marry LEGOLAS from Lord of the Rings, live in an ancient elven palace in the middle of the forest, and spend your days walking on top of snow and rowing ivory boats and just being beautiful. What's YOUR M * A * S * H future? Ooooh, Becka's gonna be jealous! 10:50 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- La la la. 1. What do you have your browser start page set to? Nothing, I have it set to a blank page so I don't have to wait for some dumb page I'm not even going to look at to load. 2. What are your favorite news sites? If I ever find myself looking online for news, I'd probably go to the Fox News Chanel website...why can't you just watch TV to get the news? 3. Favorite search engine? MSN, they come up with websites that actually are what you're looking for. 4. When did you first get online? Um, probably when I was in 9th grade (98, 99, around there). I remember being really interested in computers years before that, but around there is when my dad got AOL (gag me) and I was online. 5. How do you plan to spend your weekend? Well, let's see...today I went up to the church building to tape, but spent most of my time lying around because they were having private meetings. The rest of today was spent on this new layout and helping my mom TRY to beat my score in Boggle (which she NEVER did *evil laugh*). The rest of tonight I plan on sitting online waiting for Chris, Becka, or someone interesting to talk to. Tomorrow, there is no youth center, so I don't know what I'm going to do. Maybe I'll finally see LOTR...by myself. =P I'll probably end up lying around the house again and possibly making twenty new layouts for every other of my web pages. Sunday is the usual stuff, church, come home, sleep, eat. Wahoo...unless we have to go tape again, but I don't think that's until next week. Of course, I have to draw a pic for my pastor AND get the cartoons for the calendar still (though I think I'm pretty much done with that). I'm playing around with the resolution on my computer. I'm viewing everything with 1024x768 resolution right now and everything is sooo tiny! Lol. Some sites look really good, though, because they're made for this. I just might keep it like this whenever I'm on here...I don't think my dad will be able to read any text with it being so tiny. But, my eyes are young! Lol. Oh my...someone get on... 10:39 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Woooooo!!! New layout! Gosh, I need a life, lol. No, I really like this layout, it's a lot less cluttered than the last one. Dang it, I just remembered that I need to put my Phantom Planet banner up....oh well. I'm not going to win anyways. =P Let's see...how long did it take me to get this layout set up...two hours? It took a while to draw the picture, first of all. After that it was just copy and paste, copy and paste. I think this one will stay longer than the other one because the colors are better (blue is soothing) and it's just cool, lol. La la la, I'm in a pretty good mood right now. We're going to the HK buffet (ha ha, Becka). Yum yum. New cam pic up, yippee. I hate taking pictures of myself. =P Sign the guestbook with your thoughts on the new layout...or email me using the form!!! Yay! ^_^ 5:45 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- 
Yuck, I hate apples. 12:10 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Thursday, January 17, 2002 Oh, my head hurts again. Why do I get these headaches? Argh. It hurts! I was looking around online for pictures to make a Valentine's Day layout for this page, but I couldn't find anything I liked. I would have used the layout idea that I have on The Future..., but that's special for that page. Hmm. I did find a cool Hello Kitty picture where there's a bunch of hearts around her...I like Hello Kitty, lol. *sigh* I'm so sick of so many things right now. Why when I have a headache does everyone insist on yelling loudly right behind my head? Everyone in my family talks loud, I hate it. When the person is sitting right across from you, please lower your voice. On the phone, too. My mom thinks everyone who calls here is deaf. NO NEED TO YELL. I always feel bad for the person that she's talking to. My sister, on the other hand, barely whispers when she's on the phone. It's all mumblemumblemumble...even when she's talking to her friends. I heard my brother talking to Amber today...he was like almost yelling at her. I don't know what they were talking about, but he kept saying, "I did, I did!" (stress on the did, lol). *rolls eyes* I mean, if I can hear him down in my room, then he's talking too loud. He was on the phone with her for like two or three hours...mom started yelling about that. Argh, my head. And it's so cold...... Gosh, all I do is complain. 11:50 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- La la la. Well, I added a more 'permanent' link to The Future... subpage (look to the left). All that writing about my wedding and stuff made me have a dream about it last night...weird. I used some clarifying shampoo today because I've been using a lot of conditioner on my hair and I think it was building up and making my hair yucky. So, now my hair is free of that and it smells really good. Mmmm. I didn't use any conditioner with the shampoo so I'm sure that after a couple more hours it will be extremely staticy. Yay, can't wait. Becka has the stomach flu. Yuck. If ANYONE comes around me with those germs I swear I'll shoot you. If I get sick, I'll shoot you twice...and that's just while I'm sick. Don't ask what I'll do when I'm better. 6:17 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Hey, go check this out. I'll get a more permanent link up here shortly, but check it out now and tell me what you think. 1:47 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Wednesday, January 16, 2002 Why does everything I do get questioned? Why? As you know, I gave my dad a twenty to go buy me a calling card and he got the wrong thing. He got a gift card. So, I thought that I would just give that to my mom to go buy something and then make her owe me $40 (she already owed me $20). Then, I remembered that, yes, today IS Wednesday (I had been thinking it was Tuesday) and my brother could get me one while he was out at the youth center. So, I explained this all to my mom. My dear, sweet, understanding mother. And what does she do? "You want to buy a phone card to call your friends online?! We paid to have that computer hooked up and you can talk to people on there for free! I don't care that it's not the same as talking on the phone, you shouldn't have a relationship with someone out of state. Just be their computer buddy. You never know on the internet, that person could be...(she never finished her stupid sentence)." I walked away. I was sick of it. Megan puts in, "Don't you already have a phone card?" No you dork, that's for calling our house, not for out of state. Mom continues to go on about how I don't need to have relationships with people who live in another state and how come I can't just talk to them online and that be it. Why do I have to call them on the phone? Huh? HUH? I take it from his silence that my dad himself didn't care if I called people from online. He didn't make any comments or yell at me, just kept repeating everything I said in a question. So, after I walked silently back to the computer and did my nails (anything to keep me from turning around and yelling), my mom got up and did something else. My dad came into the room and handed me a twenty, saying I could have it because he messed up on the whole card thing. My brother left w/o me giving him the money to get a card, so now I'm just back where I started, except with the fact weighing on my mind that now every time I go to use the phone, they'll ask who I'm calling and thousands of other questions. How come it's alright for these people to call me, but I can't call them? My mom is a psycho. She doesn't understand me at all. She doesn't understand anything I do, why I do it, or why I want to do it. Why can't just one time, when I tell my parents something, why can't they just nod and say, "Go ahead, it's your life. If you want to do that, that's fine." I know that they trust me...that's not the factor here. They just obviously think I'm stupid and I can't make good decisions. Oh, they know I'll handle responsibility, but I can't handle deciding what I want to do with my life. I wanted to be a psychologist. No, psychologists are full of crap. Ok, I'll be a writer. No, why don't you make web pages. Get a job where you sit in front of a computer all day, you do that now anyway. At least get paid for it. You freaks, you don't understand! What thoughts are going through your head that you can't see where I'm coming from? Do you think that I can just sit here and say, "I'm going to make webpages for a job." and then magically I'm making money? I think that's the way they see it. I thought my life was MY life now that I'm 18 and graduated...I THOUGHT that anyway. I guess not, since now they all love to question every blessed thing I do. Why can't I just be left alone? I'm not stupid, I'm not going to get myself killed or anything. Just please, leave me alone! Gosh, I just cannot wait until I have a chance to move. And it's going to be far away, so the only contact I have with my family is by phone and I won't call them that often cuz they freakin GET ON MY NERVES! I was in such a good mood today, too. And now.....now I don't even want to talk about it. I'm tired, I'm upset, I'm crying (oh dear Lord, I feel like a 10 year old) and I don't know what I'm going to do. I have to have a break. I need a break....my senior trip was great...a whole WEEK without talking to my parents. Gosh, that felt good. I didn't want to come back. I'm running away, I swear. 6:10 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- A really good Law and Order was on today. I tried to watch Passions after that, but I can't get into the story anymore. Soap Operas are just too...I don't know...stupid anymore. Unreal as well. But, duh, who didn't know that already. You should have seen me over last summer, though. I watched Passions EVERY DAY. I really missed it when school started, but I would watch it when I stayed home sick. Yep, getting some laundry done...it's days like these that I blog about nothing and have ten posts in a matter of two hours, lol. I'm really wanting to write more on my story right now, so I think I'm going to do that. *crosses fingers* Hopefully it will be good! Lol. 2:51 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- What a way to start out your day, hmm? I wake up to my dad saying that my pastor wants to talk to me on the phone. So I trudge downstairs half-awake and listen to him tell me about the mouse. It's always about the stupid mouse. Well, his dad drew some mice and he wants me to scan and color one. I already did that, that was easy. Then, I hand my dad a twenty and tell him to buy me a phone card. Here's how the conversation went. "Dad, if I give you a twenty will you buy me a phone card?" "A phone card?" "Yeah, to call my friends." "Which friends?" "Long-distance friends." "Long-distance friends?" "Yes, long-distance friends." "What long-distance friends?" "Chris..." "Chris?" Lol, no, just kidding. He didn't repeat that as a question. I think he asked how much it would be and I said that they have five dollar ones, ten dollar ones, and twenty dollar ones (I think) and you get more minutes the more money you pay. Then he was off. So, I started doing my laundry and the mail comes. I go get the mail. There are four envelopes from the Altoona Area School District in my mailbox...one for each member of the family except for Megan. This puzzles me so I open mine. IT'S A FREAKIN TAX THING! Talk about scaring the crap out of someone. Man alive, I open that thing up and the first thing I see, "File this return along with your check or money order on or before April 15th." ACK! That is so NOT funny! 1:13 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- "Be sure to get a white horse." "Why a white horse?" "Because from the back, it'll look like a unicorn." LOL, that's a quote from Just Shoot Me. It's a conversation between Dennis (David Spade) and Elliot (I don't know his name, lol). Elliot wants to ask Mya (sp?) to marry him and Dennis is helping him out. Dennis is so funny (he was the one who mentioned the unicorn, lol). I love David Spade. Anyway, the show was really funny. Dennis kept telling Elliot what to do that evening for Mya's proposal and he said, "I've imagined Mya's proposal many times....many, many times....". Lol, like he wanted to propose to her. Funny show, I tell ya. I'm getting really freakin sick of this cable connection. If it cuts me off one more time, I'm going to call up Charter Communications and give them a nice talking-to. It's ok if they want to work on the cable or whatever at 4 or 5 in the morning, but not 1:00 AM. I hate the fact that I'm in the middle of important conversations (*coughcough* Chris *coughcough*) and it just stops working. It's like the telephone people saying, "No more telephone for about an hour." And, what can you do? Nothing. I just sit here and wait for the stupid thing to come back on, meanwhile, everyone (....Chris, lol) I was talking to thinks I've left them because I'm upset or something. Argh! =P I made two really nice Yahoo Messenger Skins today. One with a pic that Chris sent me and one featuring Sailor Moon. I even made buttons that are in the IM windows. Yeah, buddy. They're rockin. I especially like the one I made with Chris' pic. That's what I'm using now. If anyone wants me to make them a skin or if they want one of the ones I mentioned (actually, the Chris one is just mine, so back off! Lol) drop me a line using the form or something (cuz the form really works this time!!!). ^_^ I have that dumb Craig David song in my head. Ugh. =P Oh, while waiting for my connection to come back on, I tried to write on some of my stories. I'm really liking the one story I started about Riordan and Athalia...are those names too weird? Lol. Anyways, it should be a good one, I just need to get the whole story figured out. Gag. Hey, I found another Trading Spaces fan! (I won't mention any names) Anyone else watch that show? Genevive (sp?) is my fave designer, but Doug and Vern are close behind her. Tye, I love Tye! Lol. He's hilarious, but now they always have Amy on there. =P She's cool, though. A Wedding Story comes on before Trading Spaces and I sometimes find myself watching that....I really need to stop, lol. It makes me imagine stuff.....argh. 2:59 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Yay, both teams won their games tonight!.....and of course I wasn't there! Gah! Stupid away games that I can't go to! 12:02 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, January 15, 2002 Hmm, after hours upon hours of watching Trading Spaces, I'm thinking about taking classes on interior decorating. That would be really fun, don't you think? Ok, so you might not think so, but I do! Lol. I wouldn't really want to do it as a full time job or anything, I would just want the classes for myself. I'm going to have the best darn looking house in whatever state I live in! Lol. I swear I am. I don't know why this is on my mind right now. Been thinking a lot about it lately. First I lose all ideas for writing (which is really not good, since I've been planning on doing that the rest of my life, lol), which I blamed on putting all my creativity into my webpage...which is design. Now I'm wanting to re-do my room, and I'm putting creativity into that, which I shouldn't be doing because it's never going to happen, so now my mind is wandering and I keep thinking about having my own house (*ahem* that actually means a house with my husband, heheh) and how I would decorate it. Gosh, I want to do that so badly, lol. Of course, it would take money to do that, so that's where writing my books comes in...though, I'm definitely not expecting them to be like best-sellers or anything, but I'm hoping I make money and not lose it, lol. I can also decorate other people's houses on the side and get some money. (You all do understand that I HATE to work, right? Lol. I do not want a job AT ALL. I absolutely hate it. I'm not the person for it. I work on my own time, by my own rules, etc. Don't tell me what to do!) Now, it's the part of waiting until that happens that's annoying me, lol. Right now, I feel like a bum because I sit around the house...but I can't help it! I hate working! Just leave me alone! Lol. =P 4:58 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Oh my gosh, I don't know what was up with my connection last night, but I was getting really sick of it. I couldn't sign into anything, except Yahoo, which it would kick me out of every five seconds. I appologize to anyone trying to talk to me last night. I'm really sorry. I was getting really, really annoyed with it. I wasn't ignoring anyone or upset with anyone, my connection was just screwed up. It's fine now, though. That makes the third and worst time it's messed up. This cable connection isn't at all like I thought it was going to be. Anyways, basketball game tonight, though I think it's away so I won't be seeing it. This morning, my dad spouted off some directions for me to do during the day. Like, listen for the phone, etc. I think when the guy called to tell us the car was done being fixed, I was supposed to call him up at the church, but I don't know the number. I'll just wait until Mom comes home and have her call him. Blast, this really sucks. I hate it when stuff like this happens. I really wanted to talk to people last night. 3:21 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Monday, January 14, 2002 The house smells like Thanksgiving. Mmmmm. The turkey is cooking right now and my dad's fixing the other stuff...this is our belated Christmas dinner. Yay! My uncle, aunt, and cousin (from yesterday) are coming over to eat with us. I think I'm going to get a shower, though, before they get here. I've got like an hour before supper. Hmm. Other than dinner, today majorly sucks. 5:09 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sunday, January 13, 2002  Take the Which Beatle Are You? Quiz. 8:14 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- 
Yay! I LOVE Sponge Bob Square Pants! 7:59 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok, sorta perturbed about something, but not going to mention it here. Hmm. I'm really tired. Becka actually came to church today, lol, but we still couldn't find her sticker. Here's the deal: I got her a dangly star bracelet and a sticker that says, "I love Curious George" on it for Christmas. I gave them to her in church and she put the bracelet on, but stuck the sticker inside a hymnal. Well, she LEFT the sticker in the hymn book and didn't tell me for about a month (that's four Sundays I could've been looking for it while she wasn't there =P). So, she finally told me and the next Sunday I went hunting for it. I found the card thing that the bracelet was on, but not the sticker. Since she said it was in the same book, I say the sticker is long gone. But I don't see how. Our church isn't that big. What, did some little kid open up a hymnal and just take it? I mean, I can't see that happening. The parents would have seen it and asked about it. Hmm. I should've stayed home from my aunt's house and took a nap. No, instead I had to go out there and eat chille (bleck). Eating hot, saucy foods like that is not recommended when you have a sore in your mouth. Ouch. I fell asleep on their couch, lol. That wasn't too comfy, considering I couldn't like just put my legs up there, that's kinda rude. So, I was just leaning over onto the arm of the chair...while everyone else was playing cards. They were really loud, so I think I only slept for a few minutes, but I felt a little better after that. Then, I don't think my cousin likes me very much. He never asks me to go back in his room to play on his PS 2...he always asks my sister. I know they're closer in age and stuff, but I'm the one obsessed with PS 2!!! But, he doesn't have FF X, Silent Hill 2, or Shadows of Destiny anyway, so I'd be stuck playing Tony Hawk Pro Skater 2. =P I went back into his room anyway and laid back on his bed and stared at the ceiling as he and my sister surfed the internet for codes and such for Zoo Tycoon. Good Lord. I think my brother's on the phone. =P 7:18 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- *sits back and smiles* Well, I got tired of the pink and smushed writing, lol, but I love the top image and the general layout, so I went through and changed the colors. Do ya like? I personally think that this color purple is calm...the pink was kinda wild, do you get what I mean? And now when I write "click" it doesn't look like a bad word, lol. Yes, I HAD to get rid of the condensed writing. Oh, and do you like the bullet next to the date? I thought it was cute. :) It's taken from one of the squares in the main image. Another thing to mention, too, is that I was accepted into another ring, so go check out those sites. =) Oohh, my neck hurts when I turn it to the right. Owie. ^_^ I'm just so happy about all kinds of stuff right now. Gavin (from Bush) asked Gwen Steffani (from No Doubt) to marry her on Jan. 1! Yay! That's so cool. Lol, I'm happy for Gwen. =) I'm also happy that I got this layout up and it doesn't hurt my eyes like the other one, lol. The other reasons I'm happy I will leave a secret. ^_~ 2:29 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Saturday, January 12, 2002 Ok, so I lied. There's a new pic for you. =) But the three-way lamp in my den (where the computer is) is having problems and it only goes to the first level, so it's kinda dark in here. Yes, my hair is wet again. I hate blowdrying it. Oh, here's a little something I found on Carolyn's site. (not sure if she wrote it or found it, but go check out her site anyway ^_~) 26 Things The Perfect Guy Would Do 1. Know how to make you smile when you are down. 2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice. 3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence. 4. Give you the remote control during the game. 5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you. 6. Play with your hair. 7. His hands always find yours. 8. Be cute when he really wants something. 9. Offer you plenty of massages. 10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork. 11. Never run out of love. 12. Be funny, but know how to be serious. 13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious. 14. Is patient when you take forever to get ready. 15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts. 16. Smile a lot. 17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you. 18. Appreciate you. 19. Help others out. 20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1. 21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching. 22. Sing, even if he can't. 23. Have a creative sense of humor. 24. Stare at you. 25. Call for no reason. 26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves you that much to quit it. 8:41 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Well, my dad got home and passed out all the stuff he got for us on his trip. Lots of stuff, lol. =) I got an out fit, bag, and a sheet (which is actually just a piece of cloth, lol) from India, a bunch of stuff from Cebu (in the Philippines), and tons of other stuff. The money that he brought back is really cool, too. *yawn* Mmm. I'm so happy right now. :) PS. Oh, since I like that pic that's up now so much, it's going to be a while until I take it down, lol. 5:52 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Friday, January 11, 2002 La la la. 1. What was your first job? My first 'real' job was cleaning gross Penn State college apartments. Such fun to find actual purple pills inside couches and such. I found a really cute chair, though, and have it in my room, lol. 2. How old were you when you had your first kiss? Um, *blushes*, hasn't happened yet. 3. What was your first car? What happened to it? *sigh* Yeah, just make me feel like a loser. I've never had my own car. 4. What was your first concert? Carman at the Bryce Jordan Center about five years ago...and it was free! 5. How do you plan to spend your weekend? Well, already saw the b-ball game, we lost both (but the guy's was really close). My dad missed his plane, so he has to get on a later one and he should be back like 11:30, 11:45 tonight. Tomorrow, I'll probably go to the youth center and hang out. Maybe I'll see LOTR (finally) tomorrow. Hmm. Sunday, church, and I think we're having a Christmas dinner (my dad's idea). Yay, that should be fun. :) 9:18 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- LOL. Ok, I took two IQ tests online before and they both said my IQ was 120 (well, one said 120, the other said 118). I just took another one...this is what the page said: "Congratulations! Your general IQ score is 158. A person whose IQ score falls in the range of 144-160 is considered to be 'gifted'." LOL, oh, my IQ is so not 158. Here's the site. Go take it and tell me what you get. =) 3:37 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Alright, I have noticed that when I put the letters 'c' and 'l' together, it looks like a 'd'. That is because I have the letter spacing condensed. I'm thinking about not making it like that because *ahem* below it looks like I swore. I did not swear, lol. I've never sworn in my life. So, I'm going to go down and edit it (you'll be able to tell where I did, it'll look like 'c lick', lol) and I'll work on changing the spacing today, too. Also, I want to get a different color for the text. This dark pinkish-red is getting on my nerves. 2:43 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Do you know how much I want Final Fantasy X? (Well, first I gotta have the Playstation 2, but I can always just get the game and play it at my cousin's house, lol.) Every time I see a comercial for it on TV I'm like, "I HAVE to have that!" I'm so jealous of everyone who has played it! Argh! Oh, and I REALLY want to see LOTR. I'm so mad....grr, I mean UPSET (lol)...that all my friends already saw it. Now I have no one to go with. I mean, I COULD always go with someone who saw it already, but that's no fun. Becka would be sitting there drooling over Legolas (whoever he is, I haven't reached that part in the book)...of course, I'd be drooling over Elijah Wood, but that's different. HE'S cute, lol. *sigh* Grrr, lol. ^_~ 12:45 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- I woke up this morning with my brother yelling around for my mom to get him a blue shirt. I swear he was standing right outside my door. Actually, I think he was leaning up against it and talking into it, lol. It was 7 freakin 20 in the morning! Geez, be a little more quiet. It took me a while to get back to sleep, but I did...and then woke up at 9 something. I got more comfortable and fell back asleep again....to be woken up by the phone ringing. I got up, half dazed, and rushed to my mom's room (since my brand new phone broke already, argh, I'm mad...especially since I paid for it myself =P), picked up the phone and all I heard was dial tone. I waited a minute and it rang again. I answered it and there was dial tone again. You should have seen the look on my face. I was not a happy camper, lol. Since I figured it was probably someone calling for my dad AGAIN, trying to sell him a platinum credit card or something, cuz someone called back about ten minutes later asking for him. You can always tell it's someone selling something cuz as soon as you say, "Sorry, they're not here right now", their response is, "Ok, thank you, I'll try back another time." Oh, gee, thanks. I was getting worried that you'd never call back. I'll be waiting by the phone for the next time you call and my dad still won't be here. I swear, it's the same two people who call. A guy and a girl. You'd think they'd know me by now. I answer they're like, "Geez, Mary, what's with you answering the phone all the time?" Me: "Well, my dad's not here and I'm the only other one home." (Ah, #47 on the list of things you NEVER say to someone on the phone! lol) Annoying person: "Your dad's still not there? Where the heck is he?" Me: "Oh, did I forget to tell you he's in India right now?" *long pause* Annoying person: "Man, that's whack. I guess I WON'T be calling back at a later time." Me: "Alright." *c lick* *looks back at the post and reads it* I have way too much time on my hands. 12:25 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- It's been a while since I posted a Bible verse, so I think I will now. Romans 3:20-28 "Therefore by the deeds of the law there shall no flesh be justified in his sight: for by the law is knowledge of sin. But now the righteousness of God without the law is manifested, being witnessed by the law and the prophets; even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference: for all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus: whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past, through the forbearance of God; to declare, I say, at this time his righteousness: that he might be just, and the justifier of him which believeth in Jesus. Where is boasting then? It is excluded. By what law? of works? Nay: but by the law of faith. Therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law." "for by the law is knowledge of sin"- the law made Israel look at their sin; they thought about it all the time...what to do, what not to do; it pointed out all the wrong things they did and kept sin on their minds "even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe...being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus: whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past"- when you believe that Jesus died on the cross for your sins, you are righteous/justified (all your sins are forgiven! yay!) "Where is boasting then? It is excluded. By what law? of works? Nay: but by the law of faith. Therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law" - (this is for all the people who try to act spiritual. Acting spiritual does not make you spiritual. You act spiritual because you ARE spiritual. Do you see what I mean?) Nothing YOU can do can make you justified! Only believing in what Christ did for you! See, before, when they had the law, some people walked around thinking they were better than others because they did more good works. But now, once you believe, you are justified and that's all it takes. I'm not sure where that came from exactly, lol. I think I'm just a bit perturbed with some friends (wink wink, Becka knows who I'm talking about) and wanted to vent here. I hope I got everything right and didn't like mess anything up. (Becka, proof read this and tell me if I got something wrong, lol) 2:56 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Yes, I finally found someone to take over my Homestead account. ^_^ Thank you, Chris! I didn't want that perfectly fine account to just sit there! Lol. :) 2:16 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Thursday, January 10, 2002 Why in old movies whenever a man and a woman are like arguing, the woman will always spout off a bunch of crap and the guy just grabs her and kisses her? That doesn't happen in real life, lol. And the guy is always like 30 and the girl's 17. Now, don't get me wrong, I love old movies (just look at my Amazon wishlist [link below]. It's full of old movies I want, lol), but it's just that some stuff is just too....unreal...is that the word I'm looking for? The coolest old movie I think (I mean, besides Gone With the Wind) is Footlight Parade. Lol, in this one part, this girl kicks this other girl in the butt. Lol. It's hilarious. Ok, I'm not feeling so great anymore. Now I'm kinda feeling weird. I keep thinking about that dream I had....it's really freaking me out. 12:58 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Nothing like a coughing fit to wake you up in the morning. Lol. Yes, as you probably already guessed, I woke up this morning practically choking. Just a little tickle in my throat that won't go away. I also woke up to my light still being on. Oops. I couldn't remember my dream right then, but I was in a really good mood. I mean, I woke up, coughing, but not tired and once I got a drink of water, I was pretty much fine. It was weird. So, I came down here and decided to get online and get something to eat. There are two notes from my mom. One that says that the cheerleaders are running a concession stand and Tina (the coach) wants me to help. (I was captain of the cheerleading squad last year) So, I guess this means that I have to go to the game tomorrow? It doesn't say anything else on the note, but tomorrow is when my dad is coming back. At 6:30 PM is when his plane comes in and there's a game tomorrow. So, it's going to end up being my mom and my sister going to pick him up. That's just a little weird. Anyway, the other note tells me to clean my room (big surprise, lol). So, I just ignore that one (ha ha) and sit down on the computer. Whoa, flashback of a dream I had....and it's not pretty. How could I have woken up feeling great from a horrible dream?! Wanna hear what happened? Ok. I know I was having a freaky dream about webpages (which sometimes happens when I look at too many, lol. I know, I know, it's psychotic) and then suddenly, I was in someone's school. For some reason, there were costumes hanging up on one wall and all the people that went to my old school were going to this one. Anyway, we did something with the costumes, but suddenly, I'm somplace else. At a hotel, I think. (This is the scary part) There's this guy (I knew it was a guy, but I couldn't tell what he looked like) and he's murdering this couple. I can see the details in my head. It was gross. He put a plastic bag over their head and tied it around their neck with like a peice of cloth. He held the cloth there until they passed out or died and then shot them in the head. I could see blood...*shivers* I remember trying to wake myself up from the dream, but I couldn't. I don't even know why I was there watching it. So, all the sudden, I'm back at the school and there's people trying to find out about the murder. For some reason, a costume not being there is a clue and then suddenly, we're all on a plane. I know that someone on that plane is the killer, but I don't know who yet. My brother thinks he's figured it out and I remember being really scared that the murderer was going to kill him. There was something about shoes, too. My shoes, lol. Maybe. I don't know. Ew, I just can't get over how much detail there was in this dream. It was awful. Yes, as I'm sitting here typing this, I keep glancing behind my shoulder, lol. *looks back* It's really windy here and I keep hearing scary sounds. *whimpers* Hold me 11:48 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Aww, check this out:  12:50 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Wednesday, January 09, 2002 Alright, I'm really wound up and I need to release my energy! Lol. I tried posting quotes from old blogs from like September (of mine) and linking them to the actual post, but it wasn't working (the links, that is), so I tried to edit the post so you could just read the funny quotes, but got frustrated deleting all the link HTML and I also made a discovery: If you push the backspace button twice in a row, really close together like......IT ERASES YOUR WHOLE POST Yeah, so that was fun, lol. No, looking back on those old posts, I seem like a total retard. I'm not like that now...am I? *looks around worriedly* Dang, I really need to start writing some more. Too bad all my ideas are crap. I haven't written or drawn anything good recently, which is making me feel like a fake when I tell people that I draw and write. I think I'm putting all my creative energy into this website, which is why I haven't written anything new. I mean, I've edited Adrienne and that turned out wonderfully. (so wonderfully that I go back and read it at least once a week, lol) I've got another finished book...maybe I should go through that and edit it. Hmmm, I think that's what I'll do. I used to really like the story, but now I'm not so sure about it. A lot of people die in it, lol. (if you go to Pickway Corners, you can read a peice of it. It's Pickway Corners: Murder) I guess I'll just spiffy it up like I did Adrienne. 10:52 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Well, the star is up, only because I am extremely BORED. I blog WAY too much, lol. I made a new Yahoo ID: stopbeingstupid_ok. Lol. That little New Years Resolution pic really inspired me! Lol. Hmmm, not much else to say. Oh, I still have graduation crap laying around the house. On graduation night, they had all four of us (lol, isn't that sad?) make a poster of pics of us when we were little and on up. I just now (like, yesterday) took all the pics off and my mom gave me this cute little picture album to put them in. *whispers* I kinda ruined them from pulling them away from the poster board. I'm hoping that the photo album will straighten out all the curled corners, lol). My grandma gave me this HUGE porcelien (yeah, I can't spell) heart thing that has flowers on the top and stuff and inside is this candle that smells wonderful! It's so big that the candle has three whicks in it, lol. It's REALLY heavy. I don't think we've lit it yet. I want to, though. It smells nice. And so does the candle that Becka gave me. It's really pretty. It's a dark pink and has frosty things going though it. It smells like roses. Mmmm. We did light that one and it made the house smell really nice. I like flowery smells like that. I'm not into fruity smells...except for melons. Honeydew Melon candles smell REALLY good and so does Cucumber Melon body spray. Those are the only fruity things I can handle, lol. I'm really sensitive to smells. If I smell something for too long, it can make me really sick and give me headaches and stuff, even if it smells nice. (Wasn't that something in your book about the astrological signs, Chris?...why am I finding myself writing messages to you? Lol) Wow, ok. Didn't mean to blog this much. Oh, I made an avatar for I.Berry (I love that place! Lol) and I sent it to Star. Yay. It's taken from a pic I drew and I put an 'M' over it cuz my name over there is Marian...my name here is Marian, too, lol. Ok, for those who don't know yet, my name is actually MARY. Yes, Mary, not Marian. Becka just calls me Marian to be weird, and now I've got everyone calling me that, lol. I don't really care, I kind of like it. It's different. It's almost a combination of my middle name (Ann) and my first name (Mary, duh, geez, can't you remember?). Mary Ann...MaryAnn...Maryann...Mariann...MARIAN! Wooo hooo! Lol. You know, it's funny how many people misspell my name. It seems easy, doesn't it? M-A-R-Y. Wow. Ok, but I've gotten "Marry", "Marie", and "Merry", I think. I mean, do they NOT read the Bible?! Lol. You know, virgin Mary and all that. There's gotta be at least three Mary's in the Bible! And what about Mary J. Blige? (is that how you spell her last name?) Mary Tyler Moore? Mary Martin? (that's a person, right? Lol) Mary, Mary, quite contrary? Miss Mary Mack? Mary Did you Know? Mary, Mary, where you going to? LOL. Oh, I crack myself up. You know what's really stupid? One of my friends (I forget who, but it was probably Katie) pointed out once that when a guy proposes to me (HA!), it'll be funny if they say, "Mary, marry me?" Yeah, hardy har har. I was rollin' with that one. *rolls eyes* Oh, and now my pastor found out that my middle name is Ann and he's making all kinds of Gilligan's Island jokes. Excuse me, but she spells her name, "Mary ANNE", with an 'e'. I don't have an 'e' on the end of mine. So there =P PS. Another message for Chris (well, for everyone, but Chris made me remember it). I am shorter than a lot of my friends, ok? I'm 5' 2 and most of my friends are a good three or four inches taller than me. On New Years, we were all standing around waiting to see if we were going to skate first or bowl first and I'm looking around and EVERYONE is taller than me...and that feels really weird. Lol. Oh, except Ashley was in front of me, and she's like an inch taller than I am, so that wasn't so bad. But, anyway, I turned around to look at Brett because he made a comment (I used to be taller than him, by the way) and he looks down at me and says, "Mary, did you shrink?" Lol, ok, yes, I admit that it was funny, but I can't help it! Lol. Ashley turned around and rolled her eyes (Brett's her younger brother). She said something about being sick of being short or something to that nature. I don't know, I feel kinda protected with tall people all around me. Hee hee, that sounded retarded, but I don't care, it's true. 1:51 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, January 08, 2002 Does anyone else remember Gumby and Pokey? Oh yeah, and Minga and that dinasaur guy....oh, what was his name? Darn it, I forget! Lol. Anyway, I watched that show ALL the time when I was little. That's my Pokey on my keychain, lol. I whip it out at the youth center and ask people if they remember the show. Most people don't. =P Maybe tomorrow I'll take a pic of my squeaky star keychain that Chris Mc. gave me. Lol. WHILE he was going out with Katie, thank you very much. I don't think she appreciated that, lol. I took the squeaky thing out though cuz Katie kept stealing the star and squeaking it in everyone's ears. Man, that hurts. Oh oh, the star glows in the dark! Lol. Wooot! Oh, I also have this nifty keychain that says, "No, I haven't found Mr. Right, but I have found Mr. Cheap, Mr. Crude, and Mr. Cocky." HA HA! I love that one. 8:49 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- It is too early. No one should have to get up this early. EVER. It's a sin. Well, I got that guy to come pick me up, so I'm happy. He's running behind, though, so it's not going to be until like 9 or 9:30 but like I care, lol. Hey, like the cam pic? LOL. I wanted to take a pic of me now but I'm wearing the same thing and have my hair the same way...so I thought I'd get a shot of the logo on my shirt. Well, that's just plain, so I did a sort of off center pic. You like? Lol. I know, I'm stupid. =P Chris, I knew I shouldn't have stayed up until 4:30! Lol. Of course, it was only 2:30 where you are. =P Silly. I'm so tired, lol. I'm drinking Mountain Dew now to get some caffeine in me, but basically I'm still rejoicing that I don't have to drive in the snow. Yay! Well, I was watching Ed, Edd, and Eddy on TV, but now Cow and Chicken is on. *gag* I need something to eat. I need something to do, lol. Hmm. I guess I'll just sit around the house and think. Yay, lol. 8:32 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- 
You're Lulu. You seem a little insensitive to those who don't know you very well, due to your cynical nature. Your mind is always thinking of things, big and small. You have a tough time of letting go of the past. You also like to bash people with plushies for fun and then fry them up with some tasty magic~! XD Which Final Fantasy X Character would YOU be? Take the test. Oh my gosh, that is soooooo true! Lol. 2:23 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Aw, man, I'm freakin out now. The two people I wanted to get on didn't and I really need someone to talk to. Actually, I need someone to whine to and then have them cheer me up. Yeah, remember how I said that I was going up to the church tomorrow to help them tape more messages? Well, my mom came downstairs a while ago and started telling me that maybe I should call the other guy that's going up and get him to give me a ride.....cuz there is like 8 inches of snow outside! Gah, I completely forgot it was out there. I've NEVER driven in snow before. I got my license this past May (yes, after I turned 18, I was a loser and waited really long =P). *bites nails* I'm getting really worried now. I don't want to drive up the mountain! Don't make me drive up the mountain! My dad's car will definitely do better in the snow than the van, but the car might not have enough gas, and if it doesn't, I'm supposed to drive it over to the school and switch it for the van. =P Um, I don't think so. Please get on! Someone! ............please? 12:48 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Monday, January 07, 2002 Argh. Ok, I went to make a response in my guestbook to what Eric said, but when I looked at it it wasn't there and then it got all messed up and so I went to signmyguestbook.com and set up a new one and just as I went to fix the links on this page, Blogger said I couldn't edit the template or publish. So, I went and checked out my old guestbook again and whaddaya know. It was back to normal. *sigh* Come on! Where are all the good people online tonight?! The chat rooms are either dumb or over taken by Satanists, I was talking to someone but they had more important matters on their hands (^_~), and I'm waiting for specifically two other people to get on. *taps fingers on key board* Come on, guys! One of you get on! I need something to do! Oh, I fixed my "guy checklist". I remembered some things I wanted to put on it and I needed to get the ';' off of it from the last layout which I forgot to do when I moved my site. I also rearranged the things and wrote a little statement, so go check that out. 10:58 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Well, school was canceled today. I woke up to hear my brother, sister, and mom downstairs and thought that maybe I had slept in a little too long, lol. But I got up to get a shower and it was 2, so then I just assumed that they canceled school. Man, I really hate snow. Man, I smell perfume. It's not me...maybe it's the combination of something in this room and my smell. Lol. "My smell" would be the body lotion I put on and my "Spring Breeze" deodorant. Man, that really smells good. Lol. I'm sure you wanna hear all about it. ^_~ Oh, and did you notice my imood? Yes, I'm confused. Doesn't take much to get me confused, lol. No, it's not really that kind of confused, you know, where I like don't know what's going on. I'm just trying to sort some stuff out in my head right now. It's that kind of confused. I can't forget. Tomorrow I have to go up to the building at 9 to tape more broadcasts. Well, I have to BE there at 9...which means I have to leave at 8:30....which means I have to get up pretty darn early and I'm not going to be a happy camper, lol. This means I can't stay up too late tonight =(...but I probably will anyway, lol. Oh, I updated the cam pic...I'm wearing my other new shirt. Not as exciting as the first one, I know. Lol. =P And if you look to the left you'll see I added a new link...that's right, from now on I'm saving my cam pics and putting them up on that page so you'll be able to stare at my radiating beauty all you want. LOL, stay away....stay far away, lol. 4:58 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Sunday, January 06, 2002 Oh, one last thought. It's snowing like mad here. We've got like five inches since 12, lol. Big fat snow flakes. Ugh. I hate snow. I hate the cold. At least when we moved the computer stand away from the wall (where a heater is) the den instantly got 10° warmer, lol. We tried to move the computer over beside the desk, but the scanner cord is really short, so that was a problem and then we still have a phone line hooked up to the computer. I may know a lot about webpages, etc, but I know nothing about the crap that's hooked up to the computer. Why do we still have the phone line connected when we have cable? Does it need to be? We didn't want to unplug it just in case. Oh, and Brett didn't call me today about going to see Lord of the Rings, the little snot. =P I wanted to see that. 5:51 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok, I had a little incident yesterday with my earring, heh heh. I was talking to Mike, Bill, and David and during a lull in the convos, I decided to change out of my new earring and back into the straight one. I'm carefully unscrewing the back when all the sudden it slips from my fingers. I catch it, but it slips again. I hear it hit something and then that's it. I don't panic just yet, though. Taking deep breaths, I feel down under the computer stand. It's not there. I run and grab a flashlight so I can see better. I can't find it. It's not on, in, under, or around the computer stand. I start to wonder if it fell in the trash or into the radiator. But, I looked thoroughly and still couldn't find it. And, just ask Mike to know the extent of my frustration, lol. I mean, come on! I just bought it, I paid way too much money for it, and now I just lost half of it. I was freaking out. So, I eventually went to bed last night, worrying about it. This morning I got up, looked some more and then told my mom. We looked for a while before going to church, but still didn't find it. Finally, though, today, we moved everything out of the den, pulled the computer stand away from the wall, got out the vaccuum that doesn't have a bag, but has the bin that you can empty and started hunting for it. We vaccuumed and it wasn't in the bin, so I started going through the trash can. Just as I did that, my mom moved a stack of stuff that was on the very bottom of the stand. She called me over. "Is that it? It fell from that stack of stuff when I moved it. You'll have to get behind the computer to get it." So I went behind the computer and THERE IT WAS! It was somehow in the stack of paper and stuff at the bottom of the stand. YAY! ^_^ So, that's your cam pic for today. The beautiful heart on the front of the earring. I would take a pic of my other new shirt, but #1, I need a shower and I don't feel like getting one just yet and I dont' want to put it on when I'm dirty and I'm like not going anywhere or anything and #2 it's not as tight as the other one, so hence, not as enjoyable. LOL, j/k. I hate tight shirts. =P I don't wanna be a ho, you know. 5:46 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Hey, check out my new shirt! WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT?! I SEE WHERE YOUR EYES ARE! Lol, j/k. I also got a new earring for my cartilege. Actually, it's a ring for your belly button, but it can also be worn in the ears. The lady who was working at the place where I got it peirced tried to tell me that ALL their piercing earrings are gauge 18. Um, no. This sucker I got in my ear is NOT 18. It's at least a 16. (The bigger the numbers, the smaller the earring, by the way). So, I kindly thanked the lady for her help and then ran over to the chart, took my earring out and held it up. IT'S A FRICKIN 14! Maybe even a 12. So, I left Claire's and went to After Thoughts. Picked out a $22 earring and bought it there. A 14 gauge, mind you, and it fits perfectly into my ear. =P Na na. They're all owned by the same freakin people anyways, so what does it matter. And I can't believe I paid $22 for it. Ack. But what else am I suppose to do? The ear peircing one, the back is too small and I can't grab a hold to twist it on. I had to get something bigger to grab ahold of. And now I have to put the straight one in at night (cuz the ball on this new earring is HUGE) or else I won't be able to sleep, lol. Oh, AND I wasn't even supposed to wear curvey earrings until this coming June. I was supposed to just wear straight ones. Well, they don't have any cool straight ones. So there. =P 12:39 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Saturday, January 05, 2002 Cool beans. 1. You've just won a complete collection of movies starring one actor - what actor would you pick? Seth Green 2. What was the last movie you saw in a theater? Extreme Days 3. What was the last video or DVD that you bought? Princess Diaries 4. What movie could you watch over and over again and not get sick of? Gone With the Wind 5. How do you plan to spend your weekend? Um, sleep, sleep, and sleep some more. Lol, no. Tomorrow (today, whatever) I'm going shopping, then Sunday I'm going (I think) to see Lord of the Rings with my friend, Brett. 1:54 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Friday, January 04, 2002 B-ball games tonight. GCS lost...both boys and girls. Mr. H. bought me, my sister, and Selena (my sister's friend) these huge, thick lolipops. They were too slow, though *muwahahahahahaha*. I grabbed the only watermelon one. They got stuck with cherry (which isn't THAT bad, just watermenlon is better). It took me the whole girls game and into the guys' game to eat the thing, but I took a break to eat a hotdog (I had to get some real food in my stomach, it was the first I had eaten today). Well, I updated the cam pic, though I liked the pic of my shirt. I hate looking at my face all the time, lol. =P Blah, makes me sick. I have a pretty Roxy shirt on now. I should take a pic of that instead. Lol. :) 11:32 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Thursday, January 03, 2002 This totally AWESOME girl linked me from her blog! So go check her site out! (It's very cute! ^_^) 11:55 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Alright, Phantom Planet is going to be in Philadelphia on Jan. 11. Definitely going. They're also going to be on the Late Show on Jan. 30 and I already went and claimed tickets for it if some open up. I put my dad down as the guest. Woo hoo! I hope I get the tickets! Hey, how about that New Years resolution thingie? Lol. That's totally me! I love the pic, lol. 10:30 PM [link] -----------------------------------------------------------  Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz 10:16 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Well, Darkcounter seems to be down. I got a counter from Bravenet, which is supposed to be only tracking the first visit to the page by someone and ignoring mine, but since it has two hits on it already (and I think I'm the only one who looked at the page within these two minutes, lol) I don't think it's working. Hey, does this page have too much crap on it? I could put the cliques and stuff in a pop up window, would that make it better? And the links, too. Hmmm. Well, I need input. So, tell me what you think. 6:59 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Last night I had a dream that Phantom Planet was coming to play at the youth center for like a week straight, every night. I was planning on sneaking upstairs when they were taking a break to hang out with Alex (mmmmmmmmmm). All the youth center people were there of course, and a lot more. I finally got to meet up with Alex and for some dumb reason we were both into photography, so I asked if he wanted to look at some of mine. He said sure and then showed me some of his newer stuff. He kept looking at my pictures and saying, "Yeah, I've seen this before." like I showed him the other day. I was getting mad and then he showed me this one pic and said, "This is for my fiance." Then I got really mad. I just took my pictures back and thought that there's other cute members of the band, lol. They're new CD comes out February 26 (my mom's birthday)!!!! Yippee! I can't wait. I'm gonna be the first in Altoona to buy it! HA HA! 5:26 PM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- The new layout is up. The new cam is up. The new WORKING email form is up (thank you Bravenet!!!!) Everything is working GREAT! ...except I still can't figure out what's wrong with the heart symbol and the other symbols (to the left). Why are they messing up? Maybe it's because I'm using Blogger. Their code they use might be messing it up...I don't know. Beats me. I tried to chat with my mic today in Yahoo, but I was too scared. *blushes* Lol. No, all the rooms were stupid, so I just left. I'll have to test it out some other time. Yay, I'm still excited about the new stuff!!! 2:17 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- Wednesday, January 02, 2002 Hey, look what I made in my spare "I can't sleep because my neck is killing me and I'm coughing up my spleen" time. =)  11:29 AM [link] ----------------------------------------------------------- September 2001 October 2001 November 2001 December 2001 January 2002 February 2002 March 2002 April 2002 May 2002 July 2002 August 2002 September 2002 October 2002 November 2002 December 2002 January 2003 February 2003 March 2003 April 2003 May 2003 June 2003 July 2003 August 2003 September 2003 October 2003 November 2003 December 2003 January 2004 February 2004 March 2004 May 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 September 2005 October 2005 February 2007 home Navigation: --> me ---> blog archives ----> my friends -----> art work ------> poetry -------> writings --------> stuff for you |